Post # 1
Lately I have been wishing I wasn’t an Atheist just so i could fit in better! It seems like everyone around me is a super Christian and I not only am not a Christian, but I don’t believe in God at all. And it’s not for a lack of trying either. I wish I could believe, I just don’t.
Anyway, it seems like most of the people in my field are not just Christians, but Super Christians. Like they praise god a lot on their blogs and to each other and all. I just feel like I’m out of place. And its awkward because I think people just assume other people are Christians too. Like one of these cohorts was like “You don’t know this song??” when we a Christian rock song came on.
So…anyone else ever wished they were so they could fit in? (I am well aware this post sounds ridiculous and shallow, but I struggle to fit in as it is, so this has been weighing on my mind).
Post # 3
Funny, I do wish this sometimes as well.
My Fiance is Christian. His family is too (even more than he is. They use words like god bless, facebook statusses etc.) but I am just not. Sometimes, Fiance tells me he fears that I will go to hell and that he is sad and worried about me because of this;)
A few years ago, I really tried to believe. Read the bible, did some self searching etc. but I just.. do not. I cannot. I still don’t believe any of it.
Post # 4
I do know how it feels to almost wish I wasn’t an athiest, trying to exist while in a community where everything was about God, but really…. trying to believe something I really really didn’t just hurt me.
Post # 5
I sometimes wish I was, not to “fit in” per se, but because I miss going to church on Sundays! I was raised Catholic and every Sunday my grandma and I would go to church, and as much as I found it boring as a little girl, my whole week felt “off” if I didn’t go. I miss having that safe, familiar place and having a “church family”, if that makes sense. It’s been something that’s been missing in my life since my grandma moved to another state and I stopped going to church. Even though I haven’t believed in a higher power since I was probably 12 years old and spent many years as an atheist going to church with her every Sunday, I still miss it. And I force Fiance (also an atheist) to go to church with me on Christmas every year because THAT is one mass I refuse to miss, even though I don’t believe in a word of it haha. Call me crazy.
Post # 6
No I don’t, but I can definitely see how being one would make things easier. I also feel like people just assume that other people are christian. And I feel like when people find out, they want an explanation. And then I feel like they look down on me and it’s kind of hurtful.
Post # 7
I do, because I have an intense fear of death. Obviously no one wants to die, but if I think about death – really think about it, and what that would mean, and how I would just fade to nothingness, and how no one can avoid it (sorry to get so depressing) – I start to have a panic attack.
I’m agnostic, not athiest, but I really struggle with the idea that there is something after this life. I would like there to be something else, but it doesn’t really make any sense.
So if I were a Christian, I wouldn’t have to fear death like I do because I would feel confident in an afterlife. I envy them for being able to believe in an afterlife with 100% certainty.
Post # 8
I do sometimes but not to fit in. I just think it would be nice to believe in heaven or that I’d see my deceased relatives again.
Post # 9
I don’t want to be Christian, but I do wish there was a community of morally motivated people who were warm and charitable that I could be a part of without the focus being on any kind of deity. I love doing volunteer work but there have been so many times I’ve joined different groups where everything becomes about being Christian servants and as much as I fake it for the sake of the project, I always ended up quitting because it’s too much for me. (on a side note, I ironically love Christian music) but I definitely don’t want my life to be lead by a sexist, antiquated book that has been taken out of context and too literally for thousands of years… No thanks!
Post # 11
Fembride: Have you checked out Universalist Unitarian? It’s pretty much what you just described.
Post # 12
Kinda like the question do you want the blue pill or red pill?
Of course some part of me wants the blue, afterlife and all, but in the end it’s going to be red, for me.
Post # 13
I grew up saying grace, praying every night, I went to a Christian school and went to church… Not once did I ever believe. I wanted to so badly, I tried, I really did, but my brain just won’t accept it! The more I read the bible the less I believed (have you read that thing from cover to cover? It’s insane! Seriously). Nothing pushed me away from Christianity, I just never was a Christian.
I want to believe for the more ‘romantic’ reasons. Its easy to gain comfort from the belief that you will ‘go to a better place’ and that you will see everyone you love after you die. Its comforting to believe that you can pray away your sins and that there is a god who takes a particular interest in your life and helps you through tough times… But I just can’t bring myself to believe it!
Now I just accept when I die I will be dead. I accept that my life is my own to live with no outside control to rescue me when things are bad. I rely on my own intelligence and tenacity to live my life. The only person who can give me the life I deserve is myself. And I gain a huge amount of comfort from that. Love is the only force governing my life. As long as I love and am loved, life will be sweet.
Post # 14
Yeah it goes both ways. I can remember times like when I was 12-13-ish I was with my youth group in a public park, where we were quietly minding our own business doing a small bible study. These 18-20 year old guys came and started harassing us so much that we had to leave. This kind of thing has happened more than once.
Also at the high school I went to, anyone who was openly religious was mocked continuously.
Most of the people I work with and a lot of my friends are atheist/agnostic, so I do not often talk openly about my beliefs.
Also, my entire family is very, very atheist and often bashes christianity right infront of me lol. I just avoid talking to them about it, I don’t want to fight with my own family.
I don’t wish I was atheist though lol, but I do occasionally wish I fit in better. Life would be easier if I was atheist for sure.
I think which is more prominent depends a lot on where you live.
Also, I do find that online, at least in the areas of the internet I hang around in lol, people generally are more likely to be atheist.
Post # 15
Not at all. There are times that I do feel awkward, like you say. Doing pre-marital counseling with the pastor has been one of the most uncomfortable experiences because I am LYING about my beliefs (which I never do). My fiance is Christian.
But I am living my life with the ultimate freedom. I am my own judge.
Post # 16
But to clarify my first post, I don’t wish I were Christian, per se. I am perfectly happy being atheist, I would never want a religion. I guess I just meant that I wish I still had that familiar, safe place to go on a weekly basis, to see all the same people, sing all the same songs, and so on. There’s something about that that I miss. Just not the religion part of it, lol.