- 3 years ago
- Wedding: March 2015
Alright, heres the background..
So I never had a ton of friends in Elementary or High School. I was more of a one-best friend type. I was bullied, not enough to get anyones attention I guess.
Since I was in french immersion in a small town, I was with a lot of the same people from Grade 1 – Grade 10. There were the “popular girls”, the rest of us were all nerds.
The girls all wore brand name clothes and were in dance, gymnastics, ringette, soccer etc. And were all amazing at their sports. I was average at soccer. My clothes were usually from wal-mart or Zellers (Similar to Target in the states). They were all skinny, I was never skinny, not overweight, but not skinny. I was never a straight A student, they were. So there was always something to laugh at about me.
When grade 8 hit (senior class for elementary), a different schools french program combined with ours, giving our class 13 more students. Apparently they were out to get me. I had a dictionary thrown at my head, rumours spread about me, names called, etc.
So basically my whole life I felt like I belonged to no group whatsoever.
Everywhere I’ve worked or gone to school, I’ve felt people just talk behind my back and secretly don’t like me. Not that I give them a reason to talk or not like me. I feel like people don’t want to be my friend. And I’m always surprised or suspicious when someone wants to be my friend.
So- Does anyone ever feel like this? Someone tell me I’m not the only one.