- 4 years ago
Since our planning started, I’ve had these weird feelings that I can’t explain. My mom has always been extremely critical of everything I do. She told me to break up with my FI several times while we were dating, over stupid things like his job. She’s criticized my body since I was in elementary school. It’s gotten better now that I’m not financially dependent on her, but she just makes me uncomfortable. She tried to tell me to change my reception location because it’s in my fiance’s hometown and she didn’t want to be around too many of his family members. So she’s just weird. She also tried to convince me to take money and get married at the courthouse. I’ve cried about it so many times because I do need money, and I don’t want to say no to her, but I want the experience of the actual wedding with both our families.
Since then she has been very involved in planning things with me and acting overly excited, but I just feel very awkward about it. It’s like she now wants to go all out and get me whatever I want, well more like what she wants, but I made sure I liked it too. I don’t know. Everytime I have to talk to her about the wedding I get like a sick or nervous feeling. Why couldn’t she have been supportive from the beginning instead of me having to force to accept that I wanted to do this wedding? I feel like she still doesn’t want to do it. To make it worse, the night after I got my dress, I got a DUI, so I just feel like I’ve screwed things up for her even more. Last weekend my friend threw my bachelorette party so I went home again (didn’t drive that night!!) and all I could hear from my mom was how I was so rude for not including my sister who was out of town. The party was planned the day before and included three people so it’s not like it was a huge thing!
On the topic of my dad he is just extrememly quiet and the whole “bonding” process with both of them that is supposed to be happening is just so awkward for me. I don’t see them being emotional at the wedding either. Our reception is 9/14 but the actual ceremony is August 25th on the beach with just our parents who haven’t met each other. My mom has already made comments about how she isn’t looking forward to talking to his parents while they’re there. I just don’t understand her and she makes me want everything to be over with even though I’m really excited about everything.