- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
I don’t know where to post this since we are not TTC or have even been married for more than six months. We don’t want kids right now but are both open to the idea. I am on birth control for my hormones and I’ve always had issues with other health problems as well.
I just told Darling Husband last night and feel the need to write it here as well, to see if any others have experienced a similar thing or understand. A couple of periods ago I was very late, didn’t think to take a pregnancy test though. The morning after I got my period I felt very ill and faint and dizzy and had the urge to run to the bathroom as I felt like I was about to leak through my tampon (hate that feeling!). usually my periods last a few days and are very light, I have never felt this way before. Anyway in the bathroom I had barely sat down when the tampon came out along with a TON of blood, maybe up to a cup if I had measured it. (TMI, I’m sorry but that happened)
It was a different consistency than I’ve ever experienced (I’ve been having my period for ten plus years, too and always had the same light period even on different BCP) It felt very odd and chunky and not at all usual, there was a big clot or two as well and lots of sudden cramping.
This was in the morning before Darling Husband went to work and I looked/felt so bad he actually called in sick to stay with me. I was too weak to even get back to bed and remained pretty faint for most of the day. I called my doctor and she said to let her know if it gets worse or go to the ER. Well, the bleeding slowed after that incident and I was ok, just felt really bad the rest of the day.
I didn’t think anything of it until I had my period this past week and it was completely normal. I am seeing my gyno next week and will talk to her further about this but my usual doctor thinks it may have been an early miscarriage.
I am doing fine but am a bit sad over it. I know, I know… I don’t want kids now anyway but I feel sad that I had to go through that, that all my medications along with the birth control messed up any <4 week pregnancy I did have at the time.
I know it sounds illogical. I waited to be sure to tell Darling Husband about it last night and haven’t told anyone else. I didn’t want him to be sad or upset that I was pregnant so early on.
I feel better writing this out even though I feel it doesn’t matter, I’m trying to look forward to the time when we can have kids ( i want a baby so badly) and can start really trying for one. It just makes me sad that I lost whatever life was inside me. Although I am glad I am not pregnant so soon. Conflicting feelings are leaving me so confused. All I know is I’m ok but glad my doctor was at least able to verify what was going on and my periods have been regular since.