Post # 1
So I have suffered from a weird mix of eating disorders for the past 10 years or so. It has ranged from anorexia, to purging anorexia, to just purging (but not binging) to over-exercise… though I guess over all I’d just classify it as anorexia. Anyway, I have recovered so many times, and every single time, I relapse. I can be recovered for around 6 months, and then I’m back in the pit. I thought getting older would help, that getting married would help, that feeling financially stable/having a good job/ getting a degree/ having a pretty stress free life would help but… nothing can stop me from relapsing. At this point, all the information I can really find regarding recovery is pretty…young. Granted, I am still in m early 20s, but I don’t find ranting 16-year olds particularly helpful in my recovery efforts. I have been medically tracked, have done therapy, been on antidepressants, worked with a registered dietician, and nothing seems to “stick.”
I guess my question is… if you are recovered, HOW DID YOU DO IT? I just wonder what type of therapy/book/meal plan/ etc worked for you.
I’d love to go inpatient and actually fix the issue, but I am not “thin enough” for insurance to pay for that. Which is stupid, because I’m tired of never eating and then purging until I have mouthfulls of blood. I’m afraid Im going to die at 23, and I just don’t know how to fix this since I don’t know why I even have this issue.
Thanks in advance for any insight and advice you may have.
Post # 3
hey lady, I’m so sorry to hear you’re still dealing with this. It’s ridiculous that your insurance won’t cover you seeking an appropriate level of treatment for a serious illness because of an arbitrary weight requirement. what kind of therapy have you done before? you may have success contacting your insurance company and asking for referrals to a therapist or psychologist who specializes in eating disorders, addiction, and/or trauma. without knowing you, I don’t know what triggered your ED, but it’s possible you may have some kind of underlying trauma that hasn’t been resolved. a trauma specialist could help with that. I am a therapist in PA, so I don’t have any local resources for you, but try your insurance company and your doctors for references. I wish you the best!!
Post # 4
@future_mrs_s: Finding the right treatment center is a huge deal. They will FIGHT your insurance company for coverage.
It has to be the number one thing you want. No, money won’t help. Love won’t help. You need to get a treatment team (therapist, doctor, peers, etc.) and get your life back.
If you have any other questions/want to talk, PM me.
I’ve been symptom free for 6 years 🙂
Post # 5
@future_mrs_s: Well……In a way, I sort of grew out of it and learned how to cope with the stress in my life in a positive way instead of just hiding from the world within the scope of the disease.
I’m 31 now but I struggled with anorexia for a solid period from the age of 19-22. Though I’ve gone back into bad habits every now and then. I’m currently getting outpatient therapy since the wedding has brought on a lot of body image issues and I’m struggling quite a bit. The dangerous behavior is creeping back in.
The key to my recovery? Recognizing when the bad behavior was starting up again and nipping it in the bud. It was having the maturity to DEAL with my issues and actually want help.
But, for me, it never truly goes away. Not every day is a struggle but I still suffer a poor relationship with food and body image. I just try to deal with it as best I can.
I’m sorry you’re going through this – PM me if you ever need support.