Post # 1
Just feeling a little down today. I’ve been home for 2 weeks and only have 1 week left.
I work freelance and had to take a job out of town as things are slow in my town. I worked from Jan – April more than 2000 miles from home. I have a 3 week hiatus and have to go back they until the next hiatus in July.
I don’t like the people I am working with, they are mean. I had a horrible dream about them last night. The dream was a screaming match with my superior. I refer to them as the mean girls club because I feel like they just pick at me all the time.
Although I am usually good at my job, I seem to be crappy at it while I’m there. I think its mostly because they are expecting too much from me. They had two people doing my job last season and combined the jobs into one position this year. I feel overwhelmed, alone, unfriended there. Plus I miss FI. Its too much to be away for so long.
Financially, I can’t afford to not go. I have bills to pay, a wedding to pay for, and if I quit, I can’t collect unemployment. There are no jobs for me in my town. I keep trying to find one. As soon as I do I will quit and come home. But its killing the thoughts of going back there. I just looked at flights today and they are so bloody expensive. uggh.
I guess this is more of a rant than advice seeking. 🙁
thanks for listening.
Post # 3
- Wedding: July 2012 - Baltimore Museum of Industry
Ugh-feel your pain. A year ago I was in a horrific job- came home and cried a lot. It put a lot of tension between me and FI. (Got a new job last June, was laid off from that one in November, but I am much better off being unemployed than in the first job!)
Journal writing helped me a lot. I took up yoga earlier this year- and that would have been a great help last year- I tend to keep tension with me (work drama would “follow” me home.)
I think the best thing you can do for yourself is try to keep your healthy- I know how a toxic work environment can hurt you physically. Good luck with your job search (and remember- this too shall pass!)
Post # 4
@MrsTimmy: I know that we had our differences on that other thread, and I don’t really have any advice for you now – but I sincerely hope that everything works out well for you! Having thousands of miles between you and the person you love most in the world is no easy thing, and that is why I made the choice that I did, in order to bring my FI here as soon as possible. I believe that everybody deserves to have what will make them happy, if they can obtain – and I hope you find what you’re looking for!
Post # 5
@Irish Terrier: Thank you. It’s horrible and hard, sometimes you have to do what you hate. In total this project will be 11 months with 2 – 3week breaks. I really need to find something at home.
Post # 6
@MrsTimmy: It will have been a full year for me by the time I see my FI again, so I fully understand how you are feeling. At least you’ve got those two week breaks to look forward to though! For me, I find it easier being apart when I have something to count down to. Right now I don’t even have that, and it kind of sucks.
I know that you’ll find a job close to home eventually, and I hope it’s soon!
Post # 7
@MrsTimmy: Hang in there!! It’s so hard but you’re doing what you need to do. At least you have a job even though it totally sucks.
Post # 8
((HUGS!)) I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this! I don’t really have any advice except to say hang in there and it will be over soon. And vent to us Bees any time you want, that’s what we’re here for. I wish you all the best!!