- 7 years ago
- Wedding: August 2010
So I have a tiny bit less than two month to our wedding and I really feel like no one gives a damn anymore. I have a million things to do and when I try to assign tasks, EVERYBODY drops the ball.
The caterer is a nightmare. We met with her to discuss the meal plan and picked out which foods we would like. We got the quote back and it was $48 a plate for 130 people. Yeah, I budgeted $4000 at most, so I revised our list and sent it back to her for a new quote. THREE WEEKS AGO! I’ve called, but always get her voicemail. Since she caterers for my mom and dad all the time for various event I put my mom in charge of getting the new quote two weeks ago. My mom has sent her two emails, but hasn’t even tried calling her! It frustrates me to no living end.
I’m trying to get the FI to deliver his last four invites, order the groomsmen gifts, and schedule a time to get the party suited up. I gave him this list a month ago. Has he done ANY of it? Of course not. He even had the nerve to ask if I could just do it. I have PLENTY on my plate.
I am going with my other BM today to get her wedding dress….since I have been bugging her for three months now and finally just decided to abduct her to go shopping. My sister is in a jersey DB floor length dress that is pretty, so I told her we could look for something similar. She wrinkled her nose and said “Eeew, jersey? I’m not wearing that. I want satin or taffeta.” Great, so I’ll have one shiny BM and one matte BM. We’ll see what happens tonight.
My list of projects are: Ceremony music, reception music, order napkins, rent linens, plan out ceremony (since my cousin is officiating I have to pretty much figure out what goes where), finish sewing my rehersal dinner dress, make the tissue paper flowers, finish cutting out butterflies, finish making the beading for the cake, hair/makeup trial, get our playlist to the DJ, go in for my second fitting (which I haven’t even scheduled), and make all the centerpieces. On top of ALL that I am trying to drop 10 more pounds and also trying a new brand of skincare products to hopefully clear up my face.
My hair and makeup trial is stressing me out because the lady that was suppose to do it won’t retunr any of my calls and my backup lady might be out of town that week on vacation. Plus my second lady doesn’t do makeup and I suck at makeup, so I’m just like “What else?”
I haven’t been sleeping well lately because of stress and wedding nightmares. Plus I am on call this week at the job, so I get woken up at various times throughout the night. Our kitty goes in for tooth extraction this morning, oh and the fiance says the house is a mess and I need to get my sewing stuff cleaned up even though I AM STILL WORKING ON IT!!
Everytime I try to ask my BM, sister (MOH), mother, or FI to help out, they are all too busy or it just “isn’t important, so don’t stress”. Now I’m trying to figure out which decoration to cut because I just don’t have the time…but why should I have to?!?! If I could get just ONE weekend of help most my list would be gone!!
We only have a month before our RSVP deadline and I have gotten back maybe 7 out of the 80 invite we sent out! That, also, is driving me crazy since I will need to call whoever doesn’t send back in a month and I REALLY don’t feel like spending hours calling 73 people.
Seriously I am about to lose my mind. Last night I was working on my dress and ended up sewing along a line I wasn’t suppose to and I just started bawling (Even though it is easy to rip out). I gave up, grabbed the bottle of wine I was nursing, and played flash games on my computer. When my FI got home he asked why I was upset and I said the wedding is stressing me out. He asked “why is it stressing you out?” I just wanted to scream “BECAUSE NO ONE CARES BUT ME!” but I just said I was upset and didn’t want to talk about it. I thought a good night’s sleep, but I had nightmare’s where I hated my mother and ended up strangling her and that kept me up all night.
Sorry, I just need to vent. I know we all have wedding stress, but occassionally it feels good to just get it out and honestly I feel like you guys are the only ones that DO care because we are all in the same boat. Even though I feel like mine is sinking.