- 5 years ago
- Wedding: March 2013
I went anonymous for this post, because I’m afraid of being judged, but I need SOMEONE to talk to.
My Company changed insurance providers a couple of months ago and I had to change my birth control, because it was no longer covered by the new insurance carrier. I went from NuvaRing to a low dose pill and something must have gone wrong during the transition, because… I’m pregnant.
I found out last Wednesday, one day after my missed period and utterly freaked out. FI and I had already discussed what we’d do if this ever happened and we both agreed we’d terminate the pregnancy.
I called Planned Parenthood right away and made an appointment for the next day. I went in last Thursday for an ultrasound and bloodwork and after four hours of the worst wait of my life, they told me that they couldn’t administer the abortion pill to me, because they couldn’t see the pregnancy yet on the ultrasound, since I was only 4 weeks.
I’m beyond devastated. They scheduled an appointment for me to come back this coming Thursday, but this week has been one of the worst weeks of my life. I have had early pregnancy symptoms, my nerves are in knots, so I’m not sleeping, I’m barely eating… I’m just a wreck.
I’m 27 and I’ve always been pro-choice, but I never thought this would happen to me. I feel awful and the more time that goes by, the worse I feel. The only people that know are my FI and MOH. I couldn’t even tell my mom.
I’m petrified of going through the abortion, I’m petrified that something will go wrong and most of all, I’m so angry that I’m in this situation in the first place.
Please don’t try to talk me out of terminating the pregnancy – it is definitely what we want, but I guess I just need some comforting. I haven’t been able to speak about how I’m feeling to many people. I really just want all of this to be over 🙁