- 3 years ago
- Wedding: June 2014
It has been six years since I seen your smile, felt your arms around me, smelling the scent of your favorite body spray, seen your smile, heard you laugh, since I hear your say “I love you” for the last time. You did some much, big and small, that I always took for granted. Even though most were over stupid things, I miss the fights we would have at times. Each day I grow stronger and able to look back at all the memories and smile, though some tears still come out at times. But with each memory and all these new changes coming to be, it makes me wish that you were here so much more. I admit, there are times when I feel jealous because I see some who has their mother doing the things I always believed that I would be able to do with you, looking at gowns, planning, holding a baby, etc. but there are those times that I can feel you with me, knowing that you’re there watching which brings me so much comfort. I am sure wherever you are you are drinking a pina colada and laughing at everyone back home because of the snow and cold. I love you so much mamma and I always will no matter what it will never fade.
I have read post where some bees are not close to their parent(s) but instead of saying you’re sorry for my lost, go and tell whoever, parent(s), grandparent(s), sibling(s), even an aunt or an uncle, whoever that you really love and care about, tell them that. You can never truly ever know what could happen from one moment from the next. That is one of the biggest lessons I learned from this, don’t hold onto anger, onto sadness. Be happy, love, find your reason to smile.