- 4 years ago
- Wedding: March 2014
I’ve posted before about how my current work contract ends this Tuesday & won’t be renewed. Despite applying for a ridiculous number of jobs I haven’t had any luck securing anything yet. Cue major stress. Add to this the fact that I have fibromyalgia and have only been working four days for most of the last year (two days, Wednesday off, two days) and am applying for full time jobs that I’m not even sure how i’m going to cope with and life hasn’t been much fun.
I’ve also been having problems with my lapband. Went into hospital yesterday for more tests and turns out it’s slipped and I need to have revision surgery. Turns out the surgeon can get me in on the 19th!!! Which means there’s absolutely no point starting any new job until it’s over and I’ve recovered (which will probably take a week to 10 days). It sucks but I still love my lapband and I wouldn’t have found FH without it! The extra surgery is just one of those unfortunate things you have to be prepared for sometimes.
Anyway… now it looks like I’m not going to be able to work for three weeks. And mum and dad have offered to bail me out yet again, because we just don’t have enough savings to make this work on our own. It sucks but my parents are incredibly generous and we’re just exceptionally grateful they’re able to help out.
The silver lining? I finally get a much needed 10 day break (before the surgery). I’ve been running out of gas and I really needed a break. Now I get to have one and really can’t feel guilty about it because as FH and my parents say, it’s totally out of my control.
And the even better part about it is that it’s over the final week of Miss USA! Apologies if this makes me sound like a weirdo but I run a Miss USA pageant website – I’ve been running it for the past eight years, I’m facebook friends with most of the girls and I make a fair whack off Google ads. This is like holy grail week for me. And I finally get a chance to spend as much time as I want to on it! lol
And… I’m 99% positive this surgery is going to get my band back to the point where I’m not thinking about food all the time and can kill the extra 8kg I put on since I started having problems. Hopefully this should get me back to my lightest and it finally dispells my worries about looking lumpy in my wedding dress 😛