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Hi Bees,

I just need to vent for a bit...our wedding is in two weeks...things are going well...everything seems to be falling into place.  My future MIL who as you may remember is undergoing treatment for stage 4 pancreatic cancer is doing ok and has good and bad days....we moved up our wedding date for her to be able to be with us...we were supposed to be married in September in NYC. 

Work is nuts right now for me, Im trying to be strong at home for my FI to be the "rock" that he needs because of his Mom...but sometimes I just want to scream! or better yet..just bawl my eyes out....Dont get me wrong, I'm so grateful for everything and everyone that's rallied to make this happen so soon, but sometimes I think..I can't be strong all the time...and if I am...will I crack eventually...I'm so sad about my future MIL, she's like a second Mom to me and the thought of her dying just makes me want to shut down....I know I need to have a good cry with her before our wedding day..but I'm so scared that I can't bring myself to see her before the wedding...

do any of you ever feel overwhelmed about things?

thanks crebre ((hugss)) right back at cha! 

@jamaicabride: good point about my future MIL probably needing a good cry too..Im going to definately see her next week and have some quiet time with her..

*hugs* omg I can't even imagine, I am so sorry and my heart just goes out to you and your FI! What a bittersweet situation, to have her be with you on your wedding day but to know that she's so sick. Just cherish each and every single moment with her. Your FI is so lucky to have you by his side and what a wonderful thing for yall to do by moving the wedding up. I agree, you need to have a special day just the 2 of you and get all your feelings out and do something special together. I hate that you're going through all this right before your wedding but everything youre feeling is just fine and natural. Unfortunately, you're called on to be as strong as you can be right now for your FI but that doesn't mean that you can't breakdown, too. Let him know how you're feeling.

I know this probably pales in comparison but I'm dealing with my FI being deployed missing him and worrying every single day about his safety. When I talk to him, I have to be strong for him because that's what he needs right now, he needs my support and encouragement. It gets very overwhelming at times and I hate it so much but I don't have a choice but to keep going. I've learned that you have to give yourself an opportunity to feel and let it all out, face what you're going through or you will crack.

Again, I know that doesn't even being to compare but that point I was trying to make was that I know how it feels to want to give up and breakdown and stop being strong and you're overwhelmed but you have to keep moving forward. Give yourself time to feel and face it and make sure you talk to your FI, confide in him your feelings. He needs you to be strong but you need him, too. I hope this time before your wedding goes smoothly and I hope that whatever you do with your FMIL, that's it's special.

@mrsmurraytobe: first of all, thank you so much for your kind words.and please tell your FI I said thank you for serving our country...it must be so hard to have him so far away..my heart goes out to you....and you are very strong!

@leelee: You are so very welcome! And I meant to tell you that even though you're struggling, I want you to know that you are doing such a good job and you are being amazing through it all. Your FI is a very lucky man to have such a loving and caring woman by his siden and I'm sure he feels so blessed to have you, especially now. You are going to make it through this and you are going to be just fine. Just hang in there and keep moving forward, I know it probably means everything to your FI and his family. Remember, you are allowed to feel the way you're feeling, you're allowed to be sad and upset and still be strong for your FI. It's going to be ok. And thank YOU for your kind words about me and my FI. I will tell him you said thank you and I appreciate the support. It's bittersweet because even though I hate that he's gone, I'm so proud of him! *hugs*!