- 6 years ago
- Wedding: April 2013
Haven’t been posting because I have been so busy with school but also to try and keep my waiting girl crazies in check. Just gotta get a little of it out right now.
So my SO put out a timeline all on his own a few months ago. He promised me that I would not be waiting past 3 months. His self imposed deadline is in 2 weeks and 2 days. Initially I was thrilled knowing that It was coming up however the closer we get I have to admit to a little disappointment. For almost 2 years he has said so many times I want it to be a huge surprise and I don’t want you to expect it etc etc etc. Well we are down to the finish line here in just 2 weeks and he will be spending part of that 2 weeks away on business.
I guess I am just kinda feeling like I have a finite couple of days he can do so either there won’t be any real big surprise or the big surprise will be he doesn’t actually do it.
Don’t get me wrong I will be thrilled to be engaged on any terms guess I’m just a little taken aback that his big thing was I don’t want you to know when it will happen and now It’s pretty much a given I will or I will be terribly hurt.
Just had to get it out and put it in writing. Now I can go back to happy smiley girl with my guy and not let him see the crazy in my eyes.