- 3 years ago
Friday I took my driving test, that would enable me to get my license. (I wish I had gotten this all done years ago, but I was scared silly of driving for a long time. I’m not at all scared of it now, btw.)
I totally failed it, almost instantly. The first part was parking, and that’s where I blew it. You have to park in between cones, and they are at the very edges of the spot, making it a very tight maneuver.
I have anxiety, which I’m always struggling to overcome if possible, but I can honestly say that I was in the worst nervous state EVER in my life. Once I started the car, I started shaking uncontrollably and I nearly passed out at one point! I also have issues with hearing when I’m nervous. I’m a good and safe driver, with perfectly fine judgement, and those who have driven with me in the passenger seat agree with that. But all of that, my confidence, my judgement, just seems to disappear when I’m being observed by the examiner.
The lady actually told me that I would have made it just fine into the parking spot on my first try, but I was panicking at that point and backed up four times. That’s 2 too many times.
So she failed me then, and walked back on into the building. Needless to say, I was crushed and humiliated. Those things really get to me, sadly. 😛
I KNOW I am good enough to have my license, and that I can pass the test, if only I can get rid of my nerves! I’ve practiced since then, at the DMV where I will retake my test (A location actually in my town and better known to me) and I’ve parked in the spot with cones dozens of times, with NO issues at all. I’m fine with all the things they’ll ask me to perform on the test. Thankfully, here in Florida, we don’t have parallel parking. Haha 🙂
I’ve been stressing out and worrying about it for the entire day, and my re-take isn’t even until Monday! (Or possibly later, depending on a few factors)
Waiting to retake it isn’t going to help. I’ll stress out about it until it happens and I hopefully get my license. It’s all related to my lack of confidence while being examined (It truly makes me look like I don’t know how to drive) and how I start to panic for absolutely no reason other than “performance anxiety”.
I feel absolutely ridiculous. Do any of you have any tips/ideas/etc., that can help me pass this time? I am inconveniencing other people in my life by not being allowed to drive myself around.