- 7 years ago
- Wedding: August 2010
Ok so lately I have been really discouraged about some friends and family. And if anything else, I thought maybe I should get this off my chest.
My parents have been divorced since I was five, both remarried (mom going through her second divorce). It seems like any time I try and call my Dad, he is too buys for me. I call and he says “gotta go” or “I’ll call you later” and sometimes he does, sometimes he doesn’t. I call “just to say hi” but he doesn’t. I’ve kind of accepted that that’s how he is, and how he’s always been, but it still hurts.
My mom is ALWAYS there for me. She has her issues and everything but I know I can count on her.
My brother (only sibling) is just like my dad; he’s really bad at communicating, making calls, remembering anything and just staying in touch in general. I try and be forgiving but I still feel like I am the only one that makes an effort sometimes.
Then I have a few friends who I know only call me when they feel like it or need something.
My brother is getting married next month and I feel so distant from the whole process and family sometimes.
Then again, I have the most amazing and supportive husband ever. And my best friend from middle school is also amazing and supportive and always there for me. So I try and focus on the positives but it sucks sometimes thinking that I will always be the one reaching out and certain people just won’t reach back.
I think maybe since I have such a small family I expect everyone to feel like I do and that it should be easier.
I’ve been trying to let things go but it’s easier said than done. I’m trying to back off a little bit and just let other people call me if they want to. And I really want to focus on my new marriage…and by teh way my in laws are great…I guess sometimes it’s just hard when you expect EVERYONE to be on the same page – and they’re not. Anyone ever feel like this? Any words of wisdom?