- 8 years ago
- Wedding: October 2009
Today I wish I could just stay in bed and not talk to anybody or do anything. I feel so sad and depressed, I cannot afford to feel like this seeing as the wedding is about a month away and I still have a lot to do.
I guess it all started yesterday when FMIL came by to say hello. She is of the opinion that we are wasting money by having this wedding when we could have used the money to go overseas. In her opinion we could have invited everybody over and have a braai….WTF? We are paying for the wedding ourselves, we never asked either his or my parents for a cent, so what makes her think that she has the right critisize our wedding? She has not helped me with one single thing for this wedding, she hasn’t been involved at all. My mom died eight years ago and my family lives far away from me, I only see them once a year over christmas, so all in all it is just me and C doing everything. My FI has been married before but this is my first wedding and he really wants it to be special for me, he wants to see me in a wedding gown. She’s had her wedding eons ago, why try to take this special day away from me?
Another thing, on every possible occasion she makes a point of telling everybody who is willing to listen, how crazy woman are about her son. How most of them would give anything to be with him. What is she trying to say?….that he is doing me a favour by marrying me? I don’t know, I just feel really upset today and for some reason I cannot stop crying. I feel like giving up on this wedding, I don’t want to feel this way anymore.
Sorry this is so long….just needed to get this off my chest!