Post # 1
I’m struggling with it tonight.
I was once 240, then I went down to 160 (met FI), got back up to 190, got pregnant, and now 10 months after my daughter’s birth, I’m at 240 again. I’m only 5’2″.
This pictures was with a friend of mine (she took it), we went on a 3 mile walk with our daughters.
My FMIL hates me because I’m fat. I go up and down now. I start to loose weight, and then days like the last 5 days, I eat cookies and chips until I feel sick. (Depression)
I’m battling post partum depression, which adds a whole layer of issue. I just wish I felt beautiful, even if I am fat right now.
Post # 3
Does your FI tell you that you are beautiful? I am plus sized too and sometimes it helps if you’re able to focus on one aspect that you feel beautiful about. Do you like your hair? Your eyes? Your face? Sometimes if you can find clothing that is flattering regardless of your weight and you make an effort you can feel beautiful how you are.
PPD is a horrible thing and maybe you need to talk to your physician about that. I know when my son (who is now 5) was born I used to wish someone would just take him away it was horrible! Time helps.
Try to have some “you” time? Can you get your hair done or a manicure or pedicure or just some new underwear or something little to help you feel good?
Feel free to email me! It is hard but it can get better. You look great!
Post # 4
@Daenaria727: In that picture I do not see a fat woman. I see a mother who is in love with her child and that is beautiful. I am also plus size so I know where you are coming from.
First and foremost a diet isn’t going to work until you love yourself for who you are. Than the dieting/exercising etc will come to you.
Post # 5
@Daenaria727: Your FMIL hates you because of your weight? =( Hate her because she’s an asshole.
No seriously, that just makes me so sad. *hugs*
Post # 6
You certainly look beautiful to me! I wish I had some suggestions but body image is such an insanely difficult thing to change. Your FMIL must not be a very good person if she dislikes you for such a horrible, superficial reason.
Have you spoken to your doctor about your PPD? If not you definitely should – don’t try to battle it alone!
Post # 7
Why do you think your FMIL hates you because your fat?
Post # 8
@Sassygrn: +1 That is a beautiful picture of you and your daughter. You can just feel the love. It’s frameworthy.
Post # 9
I do not see a plus sized woman when I look at that picture, I see a loving mother and her daughter. I’ve battled my weight my entire life, even to this day still working on it. I don’t have any children so I cannot comment on the PPD, but I would agree that talking to your doctor might be a good start.