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Hey Bees, I try not to be a debbie downer, but I'm just so sad today. I hate my job working at the restaurant, and I just got into a huge fight with the manager where he almost fired me. I was angry because they had changed my schedule (I was supposed to work today and they changed it to tomorrow) and I had already scheduled a photo shoot for a client tomorrow. My start-up photography business is the only thing keeping me going right now, and I'll be darned if I lose a client just because this stupid restaurant can't keep a schedule straight. It's hard enough not knowing what my schedule will be until the Saturday before ... then they go and change it mid-week? If I don't work or cover the new schedule I get written up, so I think I had every right to be upset and argue. What kind of business are they running anyway? 

Only thing is, one of the servers there got wind of what was going on and offered to switch shifts, even though earlier he had said he didnt want to. So now I have to come in tonight and work directly with the manager I just whaled my head off at. They do this kind of crap all the time and i was fed up with it. It's going to be awful, and I'm so depressed thinking about the fact that this is what my life has come to ... deathly afraid of losing a part-time waitressing job at a crappy restaurant that does nothing but abuse me.

Once upon a time, I was an extremely successful and confident woman, now my husband hardly recognizes me I'm so "different," so dependent. The only signs of my former self are the dedication and drive I've put and continue to put toward starting up this business, and everything where that is concerned just seems to be taking a year and a day. I keep wondering, when are things going to change? Sigh. I guess this was just a vent.

Jacqi, wedding, portrait, and pets. It took me over three months to even find THIS job in this economy. I have my eyes open for something else part time, but not much else pays more than min wage around here (I live in bumble, PA).

Thanks to everyone for letting me vent. I don't know why but it somehow made me feel just a little better. Bvig, you're comment made me feel not so alone. I mean, the Poconos? I hate the winter, and here I am stuck living in a skii town now (we just moved here). It's freezing and all the fall leaves are gone. i'm sure it doesn't help that my husband is in Greece on one of his many many long work trips.

I live near you bumblers too! Sort of. A little west of you, ETP. You're right, this is a crappy time of year. It's already chilly and ugly because the leaves are gone, and no snow to at least fool us into believing winter is a whimsical, magical time of year. ::cough cough::

Hang in there, ETP! Do you have a blog or anything of your work? I'd love to see your photos of pets.

OH HAI bvig, I'm near State College too. =)

Sorry to hear :(  I've been afeeling a bit down as of late too, for no real reason at all (well, ok, there are a few, but they just don't seem to add up).  It's god to know that we can come on a site like this where women can lend their support!  I hope things get better for you, and don't give up on your passion for photography!

Thanks everyone... so I made it through my shift. I will of course get written up for yelling back at the managers, but at least I got to explain my side of the story. I'm glad to hear I'm not alone... I'd love to just blame the time of year, but I know my husband's frequent absence is a much bigger factor than I'd like to admit. I told him I think I need to see a therapist today, and he sent me the sweetest message saying, "What's wrong?" I love you and that has to be worth something right? Hang in there til the weekend." <3 him.