- 4 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
I have been engaged since February 2009. I have set 2 prior wedding dates…..this is my THIRD!! And I just feel like why bother?? Everytime I make a plan, some little disaster crops up.
I went to Incline Village (location of wedding-I hope) the first weekend in May. I wanted to see what the weather would be like exactly one year out, meet with some vendors, view the lodge where we will be married. I left feeling like a million bucks! I came home with a recharged motivation to make all of this happen.
And now…..it is gone again.
Money. Money seems to be the center of all of what is going to make all of this come together. My work slows down…..then his work slows down. My daughter is graduating and has prom and all the other senior year festivites. As a single mom, I want her to have it all, and this costs money.
I have not secured ANYTHING for our wedding. I have not made one single deposit on anything. And I am starting to feel like maybe my dreams are a little too lofty. I have talked with most of the vendors I would like to hire, and I don’t have the money to make a single freaking deposit. We make 100k a year. I don’t know why I cannot make any deposits.
Family. His mother and brother are super supportive. My family on the other hand is quick to remind me that this is not my first marriage, and I should just go to the court house and get married. I want a small wedding! 10 invited guests. I pay for your accomodations and you come and have a great time. All the guests need to pay is gas to get there, and a small contribution of $150pp to cover all of the food costs for the weekend…..everyone will be put up at the lodge, our dime. I don’t feel that is unreasonable, maybe I am wrong??
Dress sizes!!!! WHO IN THE HELL CAME UP WITH THE SIZING OF WEDDING DRESSES?? I have been working on losing weight since February, as of today I am down 22 pounds, I have 16 more to go to be at my goal. I started at 178, I am down to 156, I take my measurements, and I am a size (((((18))))) bust, 14 waist, and 12 hips!!!! WTH?? I am quite discouraged after reading alterations not being wise when going up or down 2+ sizes. I am looking at JBS to have one made for MY BODY. Nothing like sizing wedding dresses to make the bride feel like a million dollar cow!!
What do you ladies think?? I will be 43 when I am supposed to get married. I feel old. I am discouraged about money, family, and wedding dress sizing issues. Am I just being over-reactive? I need some perspective here…….