- 8 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
So Boyfriend or Best Friend is waiting to hear back from a bunch of jobs right now to see where he’ll end up next year. He’s become so down on himself because he’s so worried he’s not going to find a job and I think he’s really worried about his financial situation. He told me the other day that his parents are selling his car (which is still at their house) and it came out in the conversation that he didn’t really mind since he “kind of could use the money.” The last time we talked money he indicated he had enough saved up to survive through the end of 2010 if he couldn’t find a job (not to mention if he really doesn’t find anything he will come live with me until he does, so he won’t be paying rent!). I’m just really anxious for him.
Part of this is also that though most of the jobs he’s looking at are pretty nearby and a place we both want to move to eventually, he’s also applying to jobs that could send him to the other side of the country or even across the ocean. We’ve avoided talking about the what if of that, agreeing that if it happens we’ll discuss if and when. I just feel so stuck because I want to talk to him about the future and next year but I can’t because he’s so anxious about everything and we honestly don’t know what next year is going to look like for us (whether we’re living together fully, part time, or become even more LD than we are now).
Sorry for the vent, but it sucks when it feels like I can’t bring this up because I don’t want to make him more anxious :-(. He’s waiting to hear about a 2-year internship next week or the week after…I’m really really hoping he gets it and this tension can be released.