- 10 years ago
Our wedding is approaching rapidly (it’s July 5th) and I simply feel overwhelmed to the point where I’m not even excited about it. Quite frankly it might even be a relief when it’s over. I hate feeling like that; I know these are times I should treasure and enjoy but I am well beyond that point. I adore my FI and know that we make a great pair so it’s not anxiety from that angle.
Some background…I have planned the wedding totally solo from the ground up. My parents live in England, FIs are annoying and were quite overbearing when I did ask for their help and FI is clueless about the level of effort involved. I work full time (55-60 hrs per week) and feel like I’m on the verge of a meltdown of nuclear proportions. My job is ramping up in a BIG way for the next 2 months and I’m totally panicking about getting everything done, getting enough sleep to function and just not spazzing out on a daily basis.
My dress has been a disaster ever since the store rec’d a size 0 vice a size 8, had to order a new one which took 3x as long as they promised and then they screwed up the alterations…the list goes on. I look at my dress and feel nothing now. The day I tried it on for the first time, I had tears in my eyes because I was so excited. I still love the look; just not that dress. Now I just look at it with disappointment at all the pain and suffering it has caused.
I desperately want to be giddy and happy about our upcoming wedding day, but just feel incredibly overwhelmed. I’ve asked FI to help more, but there are some things I’ve planned without his input/help and I feel like he has no clue about so much of it. So bees, any advice, words of wisdom or others feeling this way?