- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2010
Some of you might remember me writing about my friend “M” and her bad boyfriend, if not here’s the post that I originally wrote describing the situation
Well, M has made no attempt at all since initially cancelling on me because she ‘couldn’t find someone to walk the dog’ to either get together and talk. I finally just reached out to her and asked her when she’s free so I can give her her Bridesmaid or Best Man dress. She said maybe she could ‘fit me in’ this Thursday because the rest of the week she’s busy with her Boyfriend or Best Friend and his family stuff and just cancelled again using the dog excuse! Then she goes on to say that things have been rough and that she hasn’t been sleeping well – and I’m pretty sure I know why. Right now, I know I’m just hurt and angry, but at the same time I wish I could smack some sense into her! I REALLY dislike her Boyfriend or Best Friend now, like so much to the point that it makes me nauseated when I see them write mushy facebook messages to each other. I feel like I hardly know my friend anymore and it makes me incredibly sad. Plus M knows that there are some really heavy things coming up in MY life (like my father is probably not going to be there for my wedding and it’s not due to illness) and she hasn’t even tried to see how I’m doing. I know sometimes when we get caught up in our own things it’s hard to see the rest of the world around you, but I guess I just didn’t expect this from her, especially considering how much I’ve been there for her. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think she’s a bad friend by any means – just dealing with her own crap – but it just hurts knowing that someone you care about is making such poor decisions that are hurting themselves. I know I need to talk to her, but it makes it extremely difficult when she can’t even commit to a date.
Anyway, I’m not even sure what to do but I just needed to get it out! I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about this (I would tell Fiance but I promised M that I wouldn’t say anything about her BF’s drug use) but at least here I can let it out and still be protected (and M) by the anonymity of the internet.