- 7 years ago
- Wedding: July 2012
Well I fell better than I did the last time I posted. Some updates that I forgot to mention in my last post. I have been thinking about the last few weeks and Ive come to the conclusion that I just need to give my FI time to get his thoughts together. I often make comments to him about the wedding and getting married. I know it irritates him, but some part of me wants him to feel like I do. I know its wrong…
But on a brighter note…he finally got a job closer to his degree about 2 weeks ago. He isnt at the position for his degree yet, but he will be by the end of this year. He only works part time right now (he already has a full time job-so now he has 2 jobs) Yay…but he also no longer has any off days. I am happy for him..but I cant help to think about the wedding thing. I got up the nerve to actually bring up a possible date. Next March will be our 4yr dating anniversary, so I brought up the idea of possibly getting married then. He said it was a good idea but he still wants to make sure this new job works out as planned. I totally understand that logic. Im fine with waiting until March–why not, Ive waited this long (since 2009). I wouldnt ask him to do this anytime soon because I wouldnt want him to jeopardize his new job by asking for time off this soon. As long as there is a reasonable timeline in sight. I am okay.
I decided to inform my mom of this info. I told her not to get too excited because its still in the air. My mom REALLY pushed the wedding issue when I was prego…to the point where my FI was feeling extremely pressured (which may be the reason he backed off from the marriage talk). She offered to pay for most of the wedding. That my FI felt like he was being bought because I was prego and my family was REALLY pushing the marriage talk every time they talked with him. So of course my mom was PISSED when we deferred the Aug 2011 date. ANYWAYS…that was last year. She makes it a habit of asking me about the wedding at least 3 times a month. Well…when I told her of me and FI’s recent wedding talk, she acted like she didnt care. Almost like she had no hope it was ever going to happen!! That hurt and confused me because she badgered me about this for months. I wasnt expecting her to jump for joy, but I would think she would at least be content when I give her information she has been begging me for!!!
I guess I cant win no matter what…
Now I have vowed to myself to not speak of the wedding or anything for a while. This doesnt mean I wont be planning. If FI does jump on board with the March 2012 date, I will need to be ready to go at any time. If not, then I will make my moves accordingly. lol I am putting all of my energy into outside projects (working out, blogging, music, wedding planning to an extent, etc.) Wish me luck!!! lol