- 7 years ago
- Wedding: July 2012
Hi Bees. I’ve posted a few times but mostly lurk due to being scared to death of being made fun of or something. Acknowledging that this is silly, I have decided to take the plunge and post my first contribution to this board. Hope you guys can feel me on this.
Since my very first aiplane trip, I have always gotten that excited feeling of anticipation right before the trip. Whether it was a flight to Vegas or quick trip to Boston, I loved flying so much that I would get super excited anywhere from a few days to a few months in advance (depending on the nature of the trip…lol). I’ve recently realized that I love that feeling of excited anticipation JUST AS MUCH as I like doing whatever it is I’m anticipating. As a matter of fact, the last trip I took, I remember thinking as we took off that I was sad that I was no longer anticipating the trip. The trip was happening, which meant it was already almost over (depressing I know…lol). This was when I realized how much I actually enjoy the anticipation of it all. It gives me something to look forward to and fantasize about. I realized today that the way I feel about waiting is very similar. A little background about me – I’ve been officially waiting about a month now and am hoping to be engaged by the fall (summer preferable). He is saving money for the ring and paying off a few small credit card bills (under $1000). At first the waiting was killing me and I, like a lot of Bees, started planning our future wedding. But I found that planning it without it being official was depressing me (even if I wasn’t putting down deposits or buying anything). Lately, my BF has been mentioning things like me possibly getting something relatively soon and all of the things he’s doing and sacrificing so that our relationship can move forward soon and it’s been making me feel all giddy and excited. This is really gonna happen I just don’t know when or where and it’s actually exciting me. I keep getting that feeling you get at the highest peak of a rollercoaster track rght before descent. I LOVE that feeling!! Waiting is suddenly tolerable. I hope this lasts.
Anyone feel me on this?