- 5 years ago
- Wedding: July 2013
Bees, I just recently called off my enagagment and relationship of 4 years. You can read about it here:
(hope that link works, I dont know how to input other threads).
Anyway, its only been a few days and I know I have a long way to go. But, I need some hope and inspiration.
Tell me your story, make it long, make it short, idc. Just tell me how you survived and made it to the other side. Tell me how you took your mind off things, how you got your conifdence back, how you started feeling better, how you met someone new. Tell me how you trusted someone new, how you got yourself to the point of ever believing in marriage again.
I planned a beautiful wedding, exactly what I wanted. And right now, I just cannot ever see me ever wanting a wedding like that again. I cannot picture myself wanting 200 guests, all the decor, etc. I feel embarassed for calling it off as if my guests who are invited to my second wedding will think “oh boy this is her second time being engaged lets see if it will last”. And I know, its early and I shouldnt be focusing on these things just yet but I also suffer from anxiety and worry about the future.
I’m not ready to date anyone new, I need to focus on me and feel better. But, I have read stories on here and have heard from friends how they know people who called off their wedding then then their ‘rebound’ guy was the one, or how they called it off and another guy came along and it worked out, etc.
For those of you who came out of abusive/horrible relationships, how did you love again and open up again to someone else. If you havent found anyone else, how do you stop yourself from being a ‘man-hater’ and how do you believe in good men existing?
So, tell me your path to recovery. Give me some hope to hold onto.