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I know exactly how you are feeling. I have been with my FI for 9 years, and we have been engaged since last May. I just found out that my first love, my first, everything, was getting married and I found out about a week before his wedding. I haven't seen him in 12 years, but I sure loved him back in those days. I dream about him lately. I even had a dream on a Friday, that it was the Friday before his wedding and he sent me a note, professing his love, but that he was still going to get married.(This dream I had was actually the Friday after her got married) and the strangest thing about it is I am not even interested in what he is interested in now, he is not attractive to me anymore... (we have eachother on FB) and I couldn't care less... But sometimes, I dream about him. It's really strange, BUT, I really think it is because you had those first feelings of love with that person, and after the break-up/ end of the relationship, you grew and changed, somewhat because of it. It is something that will stay with me always... but I know for sure, that I love and want to marry the man I am with today(even though today I am totally mad at him!!) haha...

I know what you mean as well.  Even if you are not in love with that person or do not speak to them, it is still a little hard.

My very first love (16 to 21) wound up ending our relationship(we were "pre-engaged") because he got someone else pregnant (though he did not tell me about that until months later).  Sometimes on facebook, I see mutual friends comment to him and I get a little stab in the heart.  I guess in the end he did me a favor because I would not want to be with someone like that. Turns out he is miserable... I do get a little very selfish satisifcation out of that... I know bad girl.