- 4 years ago
Well…I may have stumbled upon some emails that indicate that my boyfriend is on his way to getting a custom ring made…and I am freaking out.
(disclaimer: I didn’t mean to snoop, I swear, but his email was open when I got to his place after work last night and as I went to log in to my own account, I saw The Emails)
I think I am freaking out in a good way, but it’s hard to tell. We’ve been together for almost 9 years (well worth the wait, and I’m in no rush!) and this is very definitely the next – and right – step for us. But holy moly…marriage is a BIG DEAL!! I think that’s what’s getting to me. It’s all fine and dandy to fantasize about the ring, the wedding, and all the fun stuff – but when it comes down to it, marriage is a serious committment, it’s an expensive committment (hah), it’s a joining of families, and it’s for life. It’s the transition from my parent’s home to a new, marital home (I still live at home and I’m 29…we’re Italian :)). It’s choosing one person for life, and all the good and bad things that the person carries with them, and I guess the magnitude of that realization – while very exciting – is also hugely sobering.
I suppose getting married has only been hypothetical for so long, that now that it’s real, I’m just not sure how to feel about it. It’s a mixed bag of emotions. And please don’t get me wrong – I love my man to bits, faults, frustrations and all. We’ve been through everything together and he’s my very best friend and my biggest supporter. So that’s not the issue.
Did anyone else have a “moment” like this upon realizing that the engagement was iminent? Was anyone else less excited and more introspective about it?
Thanks for reading and for allowing me to share, I suspect this board will be very theraputic over the next little while!