- 6 years ago
- Wedding: August 2016
I have been a bee for a few months but regestered again for privacy.
I didn’t think I was a spy but I guess I am.
My FI just left my house and he left his e mail open. I was curious so I looked. In his sent folder there were some short e mails that concern me deeply.
Two on the same day 4 months ago read
Are you still avalible tonight? That was the title but no message.
This was sent to [email protected]****
The next one with the same title had a message. It read
Saw you posted earlier today are you still available?
That one was sent to [email protected]****
I also found one from a year and 9 months ago.
This one was titled
You look good
his message said
I would do anything you wanted.
This one was set to a craigslist addy.
Ok I know I'm asking you all what I'm pretty sure I already know...Those messages are to hookers. Right?
Let me give you a little history about us.
We met and started dating over 7 years ago.
Our relationship has been off and on because of me.
I was a lost soul for a long time and he seemed so perfect I always told him he should find someone better than me.
I broke up with him a few times over the years and ended up in bed with an old "friend with benifits" several times. Me and this FWB have a long tragic rollercoaster history.
I even cheated on my FI (before he was my fiancee) a coulple times with the FWB right before I broke up with him.
FI loved me through all of this and we got back together off and on over the years.
I confessed everything to him and he still loves me through all of this.
2 years ago I got counciling and found out I was clinicly depressed. I got help and medication and am doing great now. Also 2 years ago, I saw what I knew all along and commited myself fully to him. I stopped all contact with mt former FWB.
7 months ago my FI asked me to marry him and I said yes. We have never been so happy.
The last two emails were 2 weeks after we were engaged.
Should I tell him that I found his e mails? Or should I let it go? I mean look at everything I have done to him? I don't deserve him anyways but he insists I do. I love him with all my heart.
I am sweating and shaking. What should I do?