- 4 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
I am sitting here trying to figure out out how I have become so introverted. I am originally from NYC raised,went to school and college there, worked in corporate america, met my ex husband and married there. I had tons of friends, went out a lot, had tons of fun. exhusband did a job transfer and we moved to the midwest. It was something I had been wanting to do for a long time. For some peace and tranquility and to leave the rat race and stress I had. Well my marriage did not do so well and after 7 yrs of marriage we divorced when my daughter was 2yo. I don’t know if this started after I had my daughter or during the difficult time we had to have her (infertility issues) and it could have been that. I am engaged and ready to be married in 5 months. I love my fiance’s family (the first husbands family I did not like them so much). THey have accepted my daughter as their own blood 100%. I find myself wanting to be alone A LOT. I absolutely love my FI and can’t wait to be his wife. He says he is introverted and extroverted but I think he is 100% extroverted. Now my daughter does not come into play with my issues at all. She is literally the only person that I don’t feel this emotional drainage from (physically yes LOL which is normal). I literally have caught myself doing things I have never done in the past. For example like cringing when the doorbell rings, I was in my basement the other day and heard the doorbell and literally rolled my eyes. Do you know that I stood down there just thinking it was someone I knew or who knew FI and waited until I think they would leave? Turns out it was the mailman. When I get home if I open the garage door and don’t see my fiances car in the garage it’s a sigh of reliefe like yes i have the whole house to myself. OMG I feel so bad just typing that. Is that a bad sign? My daughter goes to her dad’s house every other weekend so I do get alone time. If FI and I end up making plans with others I immediately shut down or get this huge anziety inside like I already feel like all of my energy has been ripped out of me. If it’s just FI and I then i love it 100%. I really decline a lot on things that have others involved. When I do go to places I do talk and laugh and have fun but it takes a lot for that to even start. Most of hte time I have no idea what to say or feel like I have nothing in common with 95% of the things people do or say or anything here. I have been here 6 years and have only made a handful of friends and we get together about once every few months which is enough for me. FI could see his friends a couple times a week and for me that would just be draining.
Is it even possible that I have become introverted? Does something like a drastic event happen in your life for one to go from extroert to introvert? Or do you think this is something else?