- 6 years ago
- Wedding: March 2012
Okay, I’m about to vent, and it may be a bit long; my apologies.
Planning our wedding has gone fairly well to begin with–we have the sites, I’ve got the gown and stuff, the ladies, the dudes, etc. This past month has just been hellish though. I’m getting increasingly frustrated over our seeming inability to pay the deposit on our photographers (friends of his)–not that I have a way to pay the deposit, or I would (which just adds to the frustration). We’re paying as we go–no money saved up (we’re essentially incapable of that). So because of this lack of deposit-age, I’m uncomfortable about signing any more contracts, because well, see above. Oh, and we have our reception site, and we need to pay $$ for that, and we were goign to do that when he worked tons of over time and he didn’t. He fell through.
So on top of all this, on Veterans Day my mother tried to commit suicide for the third time this year. I completely understand why she did–I really do. But now I’m dealing with the aftereffects and I’m just overwhelmed. Simply overwhelmed. She travelled two hours north of here to do it, ended up in the hospital up there, I didn’t know until that Sunday, have had to take many days off work (thank god I work for FMIL) and now she’s being sent home–alone. To a house she painstakingly cleaned and left notes in. How is she going to handle that? We’re working on getting her a lady to come in daily to visit and help clean and such, but that may take a couple weeks. I can’t be over at her apartment day and night (nor should I–I’ll simply kill her, we dont’ get along very well), and we’re moving next friday. And we don’t have much money on top of it all. GAH.
Thanks for making it this far if you have. I guess I just need to blow my top.