- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
As of today, I have 75 days to go…”yikes” does not begin to cut it! I was super easy-going, laid-back, plodding along in planning all carefree like until about a couple weeks ago. Now, it’s like all hell is breaking loose. My Fiance is the biggest procrastinator ever and obviously is not as into all this planning as I am (I envy each and everyone of you out there who has a Fiance that actually helps with wedding projects!). Not that I expect him to be as into it, I just expect that when I ask him to do something that comprises 1/100th of the whole process, that he do it when he says he’s going to do it! I ask and I ask and I ask him to get some small thing done (and he says yes every time) and nothing happens until the last possible second at which point I’m pissed that he’s been brushing me off and I’m freaking out at getting something done on time and he keeps saying things like, “well, the invites are the last big thing on the list, right?” Are you kidding me? LAST?! I really don’t think I’m being a bridezilla, but I’m sure he think so. It has not escaped my attention that in an ideal world, preparing for officially tying your life to someone because you love them and can’t imagine life without them should not include more and more fights, angry tears, etc. Granted, it’s not an ideal world, and I know all this pressure is not great for each of us as individuals which makes it not great for us as a relationship, but jeez Almighty, sometimes it makes me feel just negative about everything. (I’m definitely not saying that I don’t want to get married, I absolutely do, but why is it this hard?) I think I’m still excited about our wedding day but at this point, I’m even more excited just to have it be here already so I don’t have to go through all this stress and emotion for the next 75 more days! Okay, that’s it. Sigh.