- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
Some of you may have come across me sharing my story before. My FI split up for a time and he quickly got into a relationship with a very toxic woman. I use relationship losely, becuase is a 6 week fling that only went that long because she is manipulative really a relationship??
Anyway, this chick was a totaly pyscho, and it culminated in her walking into my house to have a go at me. She caught me unaware, I walked out of my Kitchen and there she was in my lounge room carrying on about how I took her best friend away and destroyed her life. And how she knew people and I needed to watch out because she was going to get me and laugh when my baby dies making him hate me. (I was 7 months pregnant)
It was a dark time for me. Anyway cut to 3 years later….
I’m just starting to let my guard down and not waiting for her to show up somewhere random in my life. She moved interstate so i wasn’t running into her on the street, or wondering when she was next going to break into my house. She did turn up on FIs facebook (and that caused a fight). He basically refused to delete her, he felt I was being petty. And at first she was leaving all these cuteesy messages on his page, but that stopped and I learnt to deal with it.
WELL last week she was back in the area visitng family. I found out on the day she left to go back to whatever hole she crawled out of because she sent him a very cute text of waving goodbye as she goes to the airport (so he said but when I went to have a look at the message he had deleted it). It made me feel sick, but I thought hey he told me up front about the message so let it go.
Today my other half left to be away for a week with work. And now I look at his facebook page and the cute messages from her have started back up. Now I am going crazy wondering what other contact they had while she was back. Wondering what he didnt tell me. Did she come to my house while I was out??? WHAT ISN’T HE TELLING ME??????????? ARGH!!!!!!
And I never usually get like this with him. I think all my worrys are magnified because he is away and we can’t really talk about it. if he was here and I felt like this I would just blurt my crazyness all over him. So I am sitting here wanting to cry and pull my hair out. I feel like I am in the middle of a panic attack, and this is not me at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!