- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
…so I can bring them to the site where my best friend’s boyfriend is proposing to her today.
Cue the (honestly somewhat suprising) twang of jealousy. I thought I was totally cool with everything and knowing that SO and I won’t be getting engaged until at LEAST March but when those flowers arrived my ugly side kinda came out and I felt a little blue. Each couple and relationship follow their own path and all, and I am SUPER excited for BFF, but the roses kinda made me sad becasue SO and I ahve been talking and talking and talking about all these big steps we will take together (marraige, buying ah ome, kids) but nothing is happening yet.
I want to clarify: I am not at the crazy-waiting phase where I’m dying inside every time we go out to dinner or see family or anything. I am over the moon excited and happy for BFF, and I’m so thrilled that I get to be a part of her big day. I’m just a little jealous that I know I won’t get a ‘big day’ for a while and even then, SO set the 2 year mark as a minimum, not a guarantee. #waitingbeeproblems lol