- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
So I intensely dislike my job. INTENSELY.
Originally I just didn’t find the work very stimulating – I work as an accountant at an insurance company, which is a whole lotta numbers. Considering math was always my worst subject, it wasn’t exactly a great fit for me, but the pay was great and it was an amazing opportunity for a recent H.S. grad.
I’m almost 3 yrs into it now, and I can’t take it. The people are catty and will do anything to get to the top. There’s obv. favoritism, and although I’ve attempted to advance, there’s never any open positions higher up per my boss. I’ve applied everywhere but accounting experience without a degree isn’t very appealing to most jobs in my field. While I don’t like the work, I wouldn’t mind it so much if the people and opportunities in the company were more positive.
I’m good at it,I never get bad reviews regarding my work, but I do get yelled at for “being up too much” (I don’t know how I can be up all the time and yet still complete my work at an efficient level). To fix that problem I now email every time I get up from my seat. Not fun, but at least no one can say that I’m up all of the time. Then, I got told not to answer questions, that only a few people were allowed to answer questions new hires may have. Then I watched as other people around me, people who were fairly new, answered questions newer people had, usually wrong. Since they were friends with my boss, there’s no reprimanding of course. I just suck it up, turn up my headphones and ignore it.
I’ve gone the past year asking for some type of new position, where I could learn more and move up. I’ve even tried another dept. No luck.
At this point the stress of just trying to keep my job, and not stir the pot is affecting my health. I feel stuck, since I’m a huge part of SO and I’s income, and I can’t afford to lose my job. But I don’t want to be affecting my wellness, and I don’t know how much more I can take. I literally told my boss I needed a mental health day today. I cried for three hours this morning, and I thank God my SO is amazing and supportive through all of this.
I just don’t know what to do… Any advise?