- 3 years ago
- Wedding: October 2014
Hello all you waiting bees,
Just having a hard waiting day today. This past week has been scary and emotional and Ive been thinking a lot. Me and my SO had a pregnancy scare. Im on BC but for some reason Mrs. Flow didnt come this month. Went to the doctor, got a blood test done and it was negative. The doctor explained that it was more than likely the BC that made me skip my monthly or stress…………..talk about STRESSIN’
That got me to thinking how unprepaired we would of been and how much I want to be married and then have children. I have always seen my future as being married and then having children. My SO told me that he plans to ask me this year and the whole time during our pregnancy scare, I was thinking how people are going to talk (trust me, its gossip city in my family) and how people would say the only reason we got engaged was because of the pregnancy, which would NOT be it at all. I wouldnt want people to taint our marriage and pregnancy like that. Our kid would grow up with everyone telling it that the only reason his/hers parents were married was bc of an “uh oh” pregnancy and I wouldnt be able to stop people from saying that…..if only there were filters for childrens ears lol.
Im so tired of waiting. Im READY to be married and start a family. This waiting is really weighing on me. Ive been so emotional these past few weeks. I keep on thinking about how Im the 2nd oldest out of 5 children and I am the last one to have a child, its really starting to get to me. My younger brother is trying for their second baby. I think I have cried this week more than I have in a very long time……Emotionally drained….
Hope everyone else is doing well!