Post # 1
Usually I’m pretty positive, but today I’m totally in the dumps.
Pregnancy hasn’t been an easy road for me, and to be honest, I just don’t like it. That makes me feel so guilty. I had 3 miscarriages and I am finally having a successful pregnancy. You would think that I would be so excited to be pregnant, that all of the bad stuff wouldn’t matter, but somehow it still makes me feel down.
I miss the intimacy with my husband, we’re still having sex, but it’s not the same. I really can’t have sex in other position but reverse cowgirl and that really isn’t the best love making scenario. It feels more like a task or a booty call. I miss our closeness.
I hate not being able to do things for myself. It’s at the point now where picking stuff up off the floor hurts. The other day I cleaned up the house and started puking and then passed out. I hate having to “take it easy”. In the beginning I liked having Darling Husband help around the house, but now I feel guilty that he’s doing so much and to be honest, he just doesn’t do it the way that I do, and it’s starting to drive me nuts.
I also haven’t been talking about how sad I feel, which is just making it worse. It’s like I’m letting everything fester and today I’m exploding.
Darling Husband is at work and my bonus son is with his bio-mom, so maybe it’s just the first time I’ve been able to sit and think. I can’t stop crying.
If you read all this, thanks for putting up with my whining.
Post # 3
(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) There’s a lot going on with/in your body. I’m not surprised you’re frustrated and having a bad day! I haven’t been pregnant myself, but I can totally understand why you’re feeling the way you are. Sending you lots of love sweetie and hoping you have a better day tomorrow!
Post # 4
I don’t really have much to say because I’ve never been pregnant.. but I just wanted to send you a big E-HUG! 🙂
Just remind yourself that it’ll allll be worth it, once you hold your little angel for the first time!
Post # 5
@bakerella: Thank you. I hope it’s better tomorrow too.
@ForeverBlessed: That part I’m so excited about. I just want him to be out in the real world.
Post # 6
Aww, I wish I would have seen this earlier. You have had a REALLY rough pregnancy, it’s completely understandable to be emotional right now. But you’re almost there!! I feel like rough pregnancies really make labor and the newborn phase seem like a breeze though. I’ve had days where I can’t stop crying because all I want to do is leave my house, with DS (who I have to lift up to get him in his carseat, shopping cart, stroller, etc) and do what I can normally do without having contractions or extreme pain everywhere. I’m sorry you’ve felt so down 🙁 I keep telling myself that this is how I was made and this is what my body is meant to do and it get’s me out of feeling sorry for myself.
Post # 7
You’re totally allowed to have down days and I am glad you’re “speaking” or writing about it and I hope even that just helps. Don’t ever feel like you are whining!
Hope you are doing better today and hope things go on a positive upswing for you. I hope the feelings you’re feeling now about sex and bendind down for things (lol silly to put in one sentence) you can look back on when not pregnant and that will bring you and Darling Husband even closer, and stronger.
I know things haven’t been easy for me so far, and if I have a day like this, you know I will be here writing (ranting?) and even through our scare and anything, your posts are always great to read and I am sorry you’re feeling down, but I hope things are better today 🙂 Hugs again!
Post # 8
@mwitter80: So sorry you had a poopy day! I know exactly how you feel – some days just really suck more than others as the hormones are all wacky and we feel helpless.
It is definitely strange to not have control over your body and not be able to do stuff you could before.
if you’re anything like me – today you feel fine again and are slightly mad at yourself for feeling like such a mess the other day.
Don’t worry – it will get better! Soon baby will be here and you won’t feel like there’s a little alien moving around in there (at least that’s what I think sometimes 🙂 )
Post # 9
Thanks ladies. I am feeling better today. I think working from home is partially the problem. I don’t have much adult interaction once Darling Husband goes to work, so I’m just going to make sure that I get out of the house more, so that I’m not focusing on all of the issues so much. Thanks again though!
Post # 10
@mwitter80: I’m sure that’s part of it, too. On days when I’m working in the office alone and Darling Husband is working a 24 hour shift or something and I end up home in an empty house… I often will go the whole day without talking to someone else… so more time to live in my head with all the wacky 😉
Glad you’re feeling better today!!!
Post # 11
Sorry you’ve been having such a rough time. I have to say that I don’t like being pregnant either and feel so guilty complaining, especially when I know there are so many that struggle. I’m grateful, as I know you’re grateful but that doesn’t make it any easier. I understand what you mean about hating not being able to do the things you normally do. I have not felt good since almost literally day one (technically it was 3 days post ovulation) and this is a long time to go feeling like crapola. It was comforting to me to hear from others that they disliked being pregnant too. It helped me feel less guilty and bad about not enjoying this more. I just keep reminding myself that the end reseult will SO be worth it. We can do this! 🙂
Post # 12
I wish I would have seen this when you wrote it. You’re such a positive poster and always seem to be making the best out of such a rough pregnancy. I just wanted to chim in real quick and tell you that I understand and that you are not crazy for feeling this way some days. I look up to you and strive to take things in stride like you seem to do. We all have bad days – I’m glad you’re feeling better 🙂
Post # 13
Pregnancy can be tough. I didn’t enjoy it either. Just remember that you can do this and the payoff is huge. How much longer do you have?
Post # 14
I don’t have any advice but wanted to send you a big HUG! I hope you have a better day tomorrow. xo
Post # 15
@mrsjets: Thank you so much. Your words really touched me and I appreciate it more than you know.
@chrispygal: It’s very easy to know you’re not alone.
@MrsFuzzyFace: I have 66 days left! I remember when I had 200, so it’s getting very close!
Post # 16
(hugs) It’ll be so worth it in the end. I hope you’re feeling better.