- 8 years ago
- Wedding: October 2010
I have a year and a half old german shepherd. He is seriously the MOST amazing dog. It is not a decision we’ve come to lightly, so if you disagree with rehoming, please don’t jump on me, I’m just looking for support.
Fiance and I decided to find him a new home. It’s not because we’re too busy planning a wedding, or because we don’t want him. We live in an apartment, and while when we got him we were planning for a move, it’s not happening. He’s starting to act out because he needs more room to run and play, and despite walks and trips to the dog park, he’s not getting enough.
I found a woman who I think would be good for him, I’ve spent quite a bit of time talking to her, checked her vet references, and she seems okay. We’re going on Sunday to look at her house and have Quil meet her dogs, and see how they get along. But, if everything works out, he’ll live with her on SUNDAY.
And really, I’m not handling it. I keep having nightmares. It’s making me sick to my stomach. It’s been making my cry a lot. I mean, I know it’s a sad thing, but I don’t know if it’s just because I know it’s coming that it’s messing me up so bad, and once it happens I can start to heal? In all honesty, it feels like giving away a member of my family. It doesn’t make sense, really, but I’m worried that Quil will think we didn’t love him, and he won’t understand. I am TERRIFED that all will be well with this woman, and I’ll leave him with her, and I’ll have to watch him watch us go, crying how he normally does when he thinks we’ve forgotten him.
Fiance is less upset than I am, he says that he’s sad Quil won’t live with us, but he’s happy because he thinks that Quil will be happy. I’m not there yet. And I can’t seem to get a handle on it.