- Excited To Bee
- 4 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
Just a heads up, this is not a happy post. I really needed to come and vent/release some of my anger and sadness.
About 10 weeks ago, a stray cat came and had kittens on my next door neighbors apartment patio. We had been feeding/playing with them until they became the age to adopt out. My neighbors had NO idea what they were doing, and at some point told me they were planning on leaving the cats down by a lake to get rid of them.. they thought because of the lake they would at least have water and be able to catch food.. Sigh. Well, as a cat owner, I couldnt believe what I was hearing. Not only do we live in the hottest part of the US (it is already in the 90-100s every day here), but the lake tha they are referring to is a deserted lake that is POISINOUS because of all the farming chemicals that have run off into it.
Well, there were three kittens and I noticed that one of them was WAY smaller started having a hard time breathing. I was able to bring the three healthy kittens to get adopted, but they wouldnt take the sick, smallest kitten. I took it upon myself to nurse this kitten back to health, I took her to the vet and was told that it “didnt look good for her” and that I should “consider just putting her down because ive seen this before and it only ever gets worse.” I told the vet I would at least give her a chance, I would closely monitor the kitten and if she got worse, I would do the responsible thing and bring her back in. But guess what? SHE GOT BETTER! The very next DAY after she started getting her medicine she was playing around with her mom. I was THRILLED! I spent hours with her every day, making sure she was eating so she would gain some weight and be able to go to a good home. Well, a week later, I had really fallen in love with her.. she looks like a mini version of my current cat, tabby with orange dots everywhere. I knew I was going to have to try hard, but I was going to convince my FI to let me keep her. My FI and I had to go away for the weeknd to his cousins wedding, but since she was doing so well I asked our neighbor to please continue her medicine and feed her.
Well, we were gone all weekend and came home last night. 10 minuted after we walked into the door I heard a faint knocking at our door. I answered it to find my neighbor.. she began to explain to me that the kitten somehow managed to venture out to the streets beside our apartment (we live in the middle of nowhere, where people race down the roads). She was hit by a car, and died over the weekend. I am SO heartbroken. I cried for a while last night, and have no energy to do anything today. I was nursing her back to health, I cuddled her in towels and loved on her every day and now she is gone. I feel so responsible.. maybe I shouldnt have left. I should have kept her in the house, and took the chance, my cat probably wouldnt have caught her infection..
Her mom is pregnant again, and because the city has NO money where I live I have been footing the bills for my little kitten, this mom, and a new kitten that showed up last week before I left that I have also been taking care of. I told my fiance last night that I just cant do it anymore. Taking care of the other two just remind me of her, and breaks my heart even more. We are going to pay some money for someone to take them and adopt them out, and I know they will both find happy homes. 🙁
I’m sorry for the long post, and lack of adequate spacing between paragraphs, I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening.