- 8 years ago
- Wedding: July 2010
It all starts with a series of unfortunate events…
In november my fiance M was laid off.
In december I was deemed infertile. (meaning IF i can get pregnant I will need help) I don’t ovulate, and i havn’t had my “friend” since august 2008.
In January M’s parents borrowed my wedding savings to move M’s sister and her Boyfriend or Best Friend here accross teh province, as she was pregnant and had no way of affording her baby, against all and every protest i gave out. We almost called it quits after he said i was a horrible person because i wouldn’t help his family. There is a LONG story that explains my distrust.. but for now i’ll just say they have a gambling problem… we only got half teh money back, even though M was still on unemployment and we were trying to pay for the wedding…they still REFUSE to give us the rest of teh money the owe us.
In February while i still didn’t know really what was going on with me, she had the baby. It was selfish I know, but i cried, I found it really hard to watch a kid, have a kid, with nothing and she was lazy. She didn’t even brush her own teeth for 2 weeks because she didn’t want to get off the couch and buy a toothbrush from walmart down the street. Her mom did everything, and i found it hard to bite my tongue and watch. M GOT A JOB!!! YAY!!!!
In march, I got a full diagnosis of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome with secondary ammenorhea (still working on that problem and trying to fix it). Took them 10 years to figure it out, but after another long story I contracted a Hepatitis and it hurt my liver, then my liver coudln’t handle Birth Control anymore and tried to shut down, which FINALLY they started running more tests (one dr actually told me i was fat and i hated myself and needed therapy… ok i’m overweight.. but i’m not that big…)
In May a kid ran a stop sign… he totalled my truck… our only vehicle…M got LAID OFF AGAIN!!!!
In June.. this is the hardest by far for me. i was dealing ok with everything until this morning. My mom began having problems with her eyes last month, after some test they found a hole in her eye. They have to fix it ASAP and they want to fix it this month, the longer she waits the less likely the fix will last or work. Well they have to inject gas into her eye, which will make her practically blind for up to 3 months!! my wedding is next month!!! and she might not be able to see it!!! it makes me just want to cry! i feel bad for her, she’s been looking forward to it for so long! She can hardly see now as it is, and if she doesn’ t get it done then this could be permenant! and I won’t let her not get it, i’m just sad for her. she is my best friend, and she means the world to me. her whole family is travelling by plane for teh wedding, (we live in a land far far away lol) everyone is booked, and paid for. she doesn’t want me to cancel! i just feel awful. and the stress.. i just about at my breaking point! I don’t have any stress left for the wedding! this is just kind of the worst of it, simplified. I guess I just needed to vent. thank you for “listening”. arg… I know people have it worse than me, i know I shouldn’t feel sorry for myself. I think i’m just tired, and really ready to wake up tomorrow in 2011.
I guess there is good news, we bought a new truck, we wanted a buy a NEW truck, but with M’s layoff we can’t. but it’ll do, we still had to borrow money from my mom. We live near Alaska.. trucks are just about mandatory. And they are going to fix her eyes, they said if the hole is the only problem then she won’t need glasses anymore after a few surgeries! and that’s AMAZING! (her eyes are HORRIBLE) and even with teh budget cuts, and the downsizing I think the wedding will be just fine 🙂 I just have to stay calm until then 🙂