- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
ok so I’m not sure how this all works. This is my first post here on Weddingbee…but I’m falling apart and am desperately in need of some advise. First I will give you gals a run through of who my fiance and I are together and how we got this way… My fiance and I are 30 and 27 we have been together for two years. We have been through so much together. We have both been sober for a little over a year. It was something we decided to do together. I’m not sure if any of you know what that means in all. It was the biggest challenge of our lives. I’m not sure that we could have done it without each other. We moved in together when we made this choice. We have been living together for a year now. Things are alot different for it was a huge life style change but for the most part we are much much closer. We are best friends and are so brutally honest with each other that it sometimes hurts. I do not have any issues in trusting him nor dose he trusting me. I feel as if we love each other more than any other couple does or ever could.
With this being said He left at the end of Dec. to go on a business trip. He was gone for two month. It was super hard on both of us and while he was gone he made the decision that he wanted to make me his wife. The day He returned home we got engaged and have been planning our wedding every since. I have the dress the venue and have ordered the cake. We went last weekend and picked out tux and did our wedding registry together. But I have noticed a change in my bestfriend as of late. He has started to distance himself from me. Maybe tmi but we are super touchy and love to be with each other like everynight…sorry…But anyway this has changed like even when we do it isn’t the same. I confronted him tonight because it has really started bothering me. He told me it was because of the wedding. He is scared. He told that he wants to be with me but it is a big responsibility. I have two year old son which he for the most part has raised. He has never been able to commit to much of anything neither of us have because of the certain bad choices that we had made in our lives for ourselves. We fight these demands everyday. He claims to have never been in love or been with a women for any period of time. He just told me two days ago even with this distance that I’ve been feeling that he knew he couldn’t live life right without me and it makes him super sad to even think about life without our son and I in it. I just don’t understand what all this distance is and 4 months before the wedding? Is this normal? I’m so upset!