- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
Almost 5 years ago, I was diagnosed with HPV. It’s a common disease, I know. But I got it from my first partner (not my fiance, but the only other person I’ve been with other than my fiance.) Just goes to show–anyone can get it; it’s so common and yet doctors still know only a limited amount of information about how is spreads, clears up, etc., etc.
I’ve only had ONE normal pap smear in the last 5 years. I’ve had 2 colposcopies. The one I had in 2010 came back NEGATIVE. But my doctor told me that ‘mild, low-grade’ cell changes are what’s causing my paps to continue to come back abnormal.
What terrified me is that my doctor told me at my last pap in August that I may have to have a LEEP if the cells advance or become more serious.
I realize that many women have had this procedure, and that it is necessary and potentially life-saving. I feel blessed to have insurance, a good doctor, caring parents and of course a wonderful man in my life. Great to live in a country where we have access to information and health care.
I have heard that LEEP can cause fertility issues. I am terrified and I kind of want to just die. I am going for my 6 month repeat pap on Wednesday and I am just so sad and scared that this is going to be the end of me. My fiance has been supportive and my friends understand, but I don’t feel emotionally strong enough to face this. I am getting married in June. Has anyone else had to deal with this scary HPV stuff? Anyone with low-grade changes that won’t go away or clear up like they’re supposed to?
Thank you all.