- 6 years ago
Ok… So I’ve been dating my bf for 2 years now. Last April he started telling me that he wanted to marry me. At first I was afraid of him proposing and me not knowing what to say due to not being ready yet.After about 3 months of him telling me this I realized it was what I wanted as well.Then I waited another 5 months of him telling me this to finally bring upproposal… When I brought it up he freaked out. At that point he had been telling me for 8 months that he wanted to marry me…. But that night he took it back telling me that he didn’t really mean it. I thought about tellinghim goodbye that night and never seeing him again. However, I gave him another chance and I told him that night not to tell me he wanted to marry me ever again unless he actually ment it. I was finally getting used to him not wanting to marry me when 2 weeks later he starts telling me again. I told him again that night to please not tell me that if he didn’t mean it. He assured me he really ment it and I was so happy. A month later On valentines he is being all secretive about my present and he is showing it to everyone and all I can tell is it is a small jewelry box. I get soexcited thinking yes he is actually going to propose to me. I open my present and it’s a promise ring… I wa so devestated. I asked him about his whole wanting to marry me thing again and he assures me that he does and that if it would put my mind at ease he is going to do it in june. So I stop bringing it up and I’m supper excited we were goin to Disney in June. I’m so excited though bc Disney is where I’ve dreamed over and over of being proposed to. So fastforward to our vacation. The first night one of my friends asks him when they are alone if he plans on proposing. When my bf tells her no she tells him I was expecting it to happen during the trip. So that first night he sits me down to talk about it. While I’m upset I can’t help but think maybe he is only telling me this to set me up for a surprise proposal. The last day of our vacation comes and I get to watch another couple get my dream proposal I was even more heart broken than I was before. I just wanted to go home… He then accused me of only caring about the trinket on my hand and how he doesn’t see how proposing is any bigger commitment than what we have now. Later that night after I cooled off I told him y I was expecting it to happen. He told me he had originally planned for it to be during our vacation but changed his mind. That upset meworst of all bc all I could think is that I did something wrong. He tells me it was nothing I’ve done but Idk how it couldn’t be. Now he tells me it will happen by the end of the year but I’ve been waiting on his proposal now for 15 months. I also feel like when he finally does propose I’m going to think back to Disney. What I want more than anything is to understand y he is doing this to me y not propose if you want to marry me. It’s gotten to the point that I can’t help but feel jealous when other people get engaged or married bc I feel like it is never going to happen for me. What is stopping him from pushing the date of his proposal back again.