- 3 years ago
- Wedding: November 2013
Bees, I am feeling horrible this morning! 🙁 My wedding is 3 weeks away and I am 6 lbs heavier than I was when I went to my first fitting, and 3 lbs heavier than I was at my second (though I was on my period at my 2nd). I am terrified that my dress won’t fit.
I admit that the last couple weeks I haven’t been the best at eating right (my bday is 9/26, FI’s is 9/30, BM is 9/20, BM’s hubs is 10/11)…but 6 lbs?! Urrrrrrgh.
Part of my problem is that I have been on my period for five weeks!!! My second fitting was during my 3rd week of my period. 🙁 I can’t figure out what is water weight and what is not. Long story short, in July my gyno started me on a new BC bill, Seasonique. Which is supposed to give you 3 months without a period and 1 week on, for a total of 4 periods/yr. Unfortunately in my case, I was fine for two months, bled the entire 3rd month while still taking the pill, and am now on my 5th day of the sugar pill. This past week I have been bloated, cramping, bleeding heavily, and yesterday was so bad that I was nauseous and had the runs all day. All I ate yesterday was soup and cheerios, and I’m still 6 lbs heavier than I was at my first fitting. I called my gyno to ask her about it and she just said, “It’s just your body trying to adjust, you can either go off of it completely or try another set of 3 months, but we keep switching you so it’s not a good idea to switch you again. Plus, you are under a lot of stress, so there’s nothing any of us can do, you just have to wait.”
I don’t know what to do. I lost 25 lbs since February (though am now back up 6), and I didn’t come this far to be fat and overflowing out of my dress on my wedding day! This morning my fingers are so swollen my ring is tighter than usual. 🙁 So part of me is hoping that it’s just water. But I don’t know how to get rid of it. And I don’t know if going back on my pill tomorrow will fix it or if I will still continue to bleed.
And what if it’s not water weight? What if I really did gain the weight? What then? I am definitely not going to continue my bad habits and I am going to start running on my treadmill again in the afternoons (I had lost too much weight at my first fitting and they told me the dress would be ruined if I lost any more, so after my first fitting I stopped working super hard and focused on maintaining my weight instead). But will that be enough?
I just feel so gross. And I am afraid I am going to be ugly and my dress will be too small on my wedding day and all of my fat rolls will be pushing out of my bodice. FI says I’m just being hormonal and I’ll look beautiful anyway, which is probably partly true, but I am terrified of how the dress will fit. What if it’s too tight?
Ugh, help me! I am feeling so miserable and sad and ugly and fat and gross. 🙁 🙁 🙁 What should I do!?