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    TP to Bee    January 8, 2011   Chicago, IL

    Dear Hive, I sat down to write this for the past 2 day but I just couldn't do it. So here goes nothing.

    My dad is dead. My dear sweet father who was my hero and my everything is dead. My mom and I found him late Monday night. We had been out at the florist's for a final appointment before the wedding. We came home and found him blue and cold. He looked so peaceful. Not wanting to believe it and being the RN that I am I tried CPR. But I knew from the second I saw him that he was gone. The only joy I have right now is knowing that he is in heaven with my Heavenly Father. We are a very religious family and I know my dad is dancing those streets of gold with my Savior. That is the only joy I can possibly see right now.

    My wedding is in less than a month. My dad was supposed to walk me down the aisle, officiate the ceremony, give me away, and dance with me. Now, he won't be there for any of that. Mom says we have to go on and have the wedding. It was what dad wanted. But I feel so incredibly selfish for even thinking about the wedding right now. I told my fiance that I know there is such joy in our wedding but right now I can't see any of it. I am too overwhelmed by sorrow. I feel like it will never go away. I can't believe this is my life now. I feel like I've woken up to a nightmare.

    But we will be okay. We will carry on. Through God's strength alone we will survive. Please pray for me. Pray for my family. We are all having an incredibly hard time at the sudden passing of my beloved daddy.

     
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    Mrs Grape    December 10, 2010  

    Oh, man. I'm so sorry for your loss. :( Hugs!

     
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    Alisha1190    July 30, 2011   Johnson City, TN

    WOW! Im so sorry, i lost my dad when i was 16. But this close to your wedding must hurt really bad. Im sorry hun. I think you should definitely keep going with the wedding and all the last minute details that go with it. I know he would want you to. you can have a little piece of his like jewelry or something in your bouquet so he is with you the whole day. I hope you know you are not alone and i will be praying for your family. Cheer up hun, things do get better.

     
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    SoontobeMrsA    June 2012   MA/NH line

    I'm so sorry for the loss of your dad. I will pray for you.

     
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    dunlapsangel    May 19, 2012  

     I am so sorry for your loss. It's beautiful however to read how spiritual you are. That will help you through. Good luck and Hugs!

     
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    tseay    April 3, 2011   Atlanta

    I am soooo incredibly sorry that you are going through this right now. I am sending many many blessings of peace your way. I also know that your dad will be with you on your wedding day! I'm sure he would want you to be happy during this time and I am also sure that he felt at peace knowing that you would be safe with your soon to be hubby.

     
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    7SEVENJ9    September 25, 2010  

    (hugs) i'm so sorry hun. he'll be with you on your wedding day, in spirit.

     
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    TerraWellness    August 27, 2011   Jersey Shore - Vermont Wedding

    sending you love, light and peace <3 

     
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    mrs.jk    August 6, 2011  

    oh no :( i am so sorry...  just know that he'll have the best seat in the house for your wedding. 

     
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    tksjewelry    June 25, 2011   Omaha

    ((HUGS))

    Oh, sweetie, no one should have to go through this and I am terribly sorry you are.  I will put you and your family into my prayers.  Just remember that when you turn and see only one set of footprints behind you that it is he that is carrying you.

     
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    panterapeach    April 2011  

    I honestly am at a loss for words.  I feel so sorry and I wish I could do something. You and your family are in my prayers.

     
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    Miss Tattoo    September 15, 2012   Pittsburgh, PA

    @TP to Bee: I'm so sorry for your loss. It's hard. I lost my dad when I was 19 and it's still hurts almost 10 years later. I'm sure he would have wanted you to go along with the wedding.

     
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    ejs4y8    June 20, 2009  

    Oh hon, I am so sorry for your loss.

     
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    ItalianLady    September 4, 2010  

    I have goose pimples as your post touched me in indescribable ways. I lost my Beloved Mom last Christmas morning.

    What you wrote? that at least you can take comfort the he is with your Savior? It's true honey.

    And my Mom's last wish was to see me married. So although I felt we should wait a year, we got engaged in January and married in September. My Daddy's been my anchor now and he guided me telling me that it's what my Mom wanted.

    I still talk to her everyday and think about her more than once a day. She, like your Dad, will never be forgotten.

    God Bless you and your family and your Daddy

    PM me if you need me

     
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    Golden139    August 13, 2011   live in Texas, wedding in Michigan

    I am so sorry for your loss. Words can't describe how my heart goes out to you right now. Wishing you and your family strength and peace. Your father will always be with you in your heart.

     
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    megobobego    October 14, 2011  

    Wow, that is devastating.  But the great news about our awesome God is that you will see him again someday!  I know it sounds cliche, but it's such great news.  I'm truly sorry for this heart wrenching time, I pray that your heart may find peace and healing.

     
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    europomme    September 17, 2011  

    You have my prayers.  Deepest condolences to you and your family.

    I know you will feel your dads presence at the wedding.  Do not feel guilty, it's what he would have wanted.

    I'm just so sorry *hugs*

     
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    MissHelen    November 20, 2010   California

    I am very, very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

     
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    bakerella    September 11, 2010   Toronto, ON

    So so so sorry for your loss sweetie. I can't even imagine. ((((((hugs))))))))

     
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    sassy411    November 27, 2010   SoCal

    I am so very sorry for your loss.  Please take good care of yourself during this intense time.

     
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    knitting    December 18, 2010  

    I am so sorry to hear that.  My thoughts are with you and your family.

     
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    MissFlipFlops    February 25, 2009  

     So very sorry. Remember those who pass on never actually leave us. They are still here. Just not in sight, but in every other way possible they are still very close to us. Sending you lots of hugs, and prayers.

     
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    7mom    August 4, 2015   MD

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I said a prayer for you and your family to remain strong in this time of bereavement.

     
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    forestgirl    June 4, 2011   Kentucky

    I am so sorry for your loss

     
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    CantWaittillMAY    May 28, 2011   Texas

    God's graces, family and friends will support you at this time -Let them hold you up. So sorry for your loss.

     
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    Jenn23    April 17, 2010   Philly suburbs

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you are going through. (((HUGS)))

     
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    gvsusara    November 7, 2009   Chicago/Lakeview

    I am so sorry for your loss.  My deepest sympathies to you and your family.

    I am an RN, too, and it can be very hard to accept the loss of a loved one.  It's hard to explain in words, but I can empathize with your situation.  My prayers to you and your family at this time.

     
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    Miss_Pura Vida    May 21, 2011   NYC/DW in Costa Rica

    I hurt for you...My father works in a conflict zone and I worry everytime he leaves home if I'll ever see him again. Reading your post really touched my heart and I wish you all the love and support you need while you get through this difficult time.

     
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    stephinPA    October 29, 2010   Reading, PA

    Oh my.  I am so, so sorry.  I can't even imagine.  You and your family will be in my prayers. 

     
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    elephant    April 2011  

    I am so sorry for your loss!  

     
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    stillme    October 2010  

    Oh, I'm so, so sorry for your sudden loss. Your post made me cry. You're right that your dad is with God and at peace. He'll always be with you, on your wedding day and on all days after...death can't separate us from our loved ones. You're in my prayers.

     
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    dorsay    August 2009  

    I am so so sorry <3

     
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    lisa105    October 24, 2010  

    @TP to Bee:  I'm so very sorry. 

    I will tell you this because I wish someone had told me - when my own father died, I fully expected there to be this enormous hole in my life that nothing could fill.  And while I did and do miss him, I've never, ever felt there was a hole because I've never felt he truly left me.  Who he was to me, the love we had for each other, his guidance and influence are all still there.  That doesn't go away and it doesn't fade.  Please remember that as you're grieving.  God bless.

     
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    Hugs to you.  I am so sorry for your loss.

     
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    Entangled    September 17, 2011   Carmel, CA

    I'm so sorry to hear that.  My thoughts are with you and your family.

     
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    Lillindy    September 2008   Bay Area, CA

    I know there are no words that will make this all better for you, but I am truly sorry for your loss, especially so close the the holidays and your wedding. :(  My condolences to you and your family.  Please remember to take care of yourself!

     
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    arclee    March 12, 2011   Washington DC

    TP to Bee I am so sorry.  Praying for you.

     
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    Sasha2011    July 30, 2011   Toronto

    Your post made my eyes well up and I think my heart skipped a beat too. I am terribly sorry to hear about your loss. I am sure he is looking down on you and would love to see your wedding. He will be 'walking' with you down the aisle and throughout your life. Cry it out, I know it hurts a lot. And continue to be strong for your mother.

     
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    iHeartSC    April 30, 2011   Toronto

    there are probably no words that can even describe what you're going through right now.  even though he's no longer here, he's with you in heart, spirit and mind. deepest condolences - our thoughts are with you. *hugs*

     
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    smyley    May 2010  

    Oh no. I'm so,so sorry. (((HUGS)))

     

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