- 6 years ago
- Wedding: December 1969
Today my fiance blew up at Im me over nothing, its been a pattern I cant help now to realize. The verbal abuse is astonishing and I cant help to believe its unhealthy, I come from two verbally and emotionally abusive parents and i cant imagine sharing the rest of my life with one. I love him and i want to blame finals week (we are both graduating college saturday) but this isnt the first time. He constatly accuses me of his insecurities and pours them onto me, for example when he is mad he calls himself names and says I say them, when I DONT!
I cant stop crying because for the first time in my life i think i found someone who truely loves and (and hates me too) I feel like scratching the surface of his love for me only unveils hate. I dont know why???
How do I know Im making the right decision? Do we talk together? Can I forgive myself if I let this wedding happen and he does this throughout our marriage and Id only wish i loved myself enough to leave?
PLease help 🙂