- 4 years ago
I lost a good friend to jealousy. I moved out, got engaged and married, and our friendship got exceedingly worse to non-existent. I’m fairly sure it was jealousy as the red flags started going up as Darling Husband and I got serious. She even outright told me she was jealous once – so don’t think I’m jumping the gun on this.
We had been friends for 15+ years. She was almost like a sister to me. She was my only real close friend. Some crap happened during my engagement – she was a bridesmaid and didn’t order her dress on time (or get me her measurements so I could order the dress). She admitted it was because she didn’t think it was going to work out (Seriously, could have told me instead of having me stress about this. Esp. since I was paying and didn’t want to pay rush fees).
Anyway, after that we didn’t talk but I still invited her to the wedding. She RSVP’d YES but then never showed up. She gave me some BS excuse, I responded to her message saying that things happen and it was okay, and I never ever heard back.
This was months ago.
I still get this horrible feeling when I think about her. I think I’m lacking closure. I want to tell her how I feel, I want her to know how f****** hurt I am. 15 years and she treats me like trash. I deleted her off facebook because it made me sick every time I saw her face. So I know she knows I’m through with her. I would never contact her though. Not now. Too much time has passed and it would be super awkward and I just can’t put myself through that stress.
But I still can’t let it go. I want to vent and vent until the cows come home.
How do you get over stuff like this? Darling Husband was my first boyfriend so I never had to get over a guy. I’ve had the same friends since middle school so I never had to get over anyone. Eventually will I just not care and stop thinking about it?