- 7 years ago
I’m having a vow renewal ceremony next April. I wouldn’t have cared if we ever did anything after that if I didn’t look so fat and horrible in the wedding pictures. He tells me how beautiful I was on that day, but we both hate the pics because the photographer was CRAP and we were hot and sweaty and miserable. We have a hard time even remembering our wedding day because there was nothing special about!! we both are looking forward to our ceremony so much, he’s so involved in the planning! It’s so fun to plan!! However…
I’ve vowed to lose weight for the renewal, especaially since we booked the photographer of our dreams for our “real” wedding and I’m not gonna risk looking back at those photos and hate them because I look fat. I’m a size 18 now and want to be at least a 12 by november when I have to go buy a wedding gown. however I’m so stressed with my husband, and in-laws, and work, and EVERYTHING that my emotional eating is taking over. I have a gym membership, have read a book I saw on Oprah, and even have enlisted my best friend as a work out buddy (she’s my matron of honor and we both want to lose weight. We’re the same size). But even though I set up these things around me so I won’t fail, all I can think about is a burger and fries. I work nights as a nurse in an ER and I can’t find the energy to even go work out! I’m so emotionally exhausted that I feel physically exhausted too.
Anyone else out there like me???