- 6 years ago
- Wedding: July 2014
October will make it two years I’ve been engaged and I just want to get married. Im tired of the excuses. We have a home with no mortgage, two kids, we both work full time, and know we are each others soulmates. My fiancée is 21 years older than me and before I came along he never wanted kids or marriage. I’m the only female he ever brought home the man is 46 for crying out loud. He proposed while I was pregnant with our son (the first is not his) and still nothing. If I dare say it was a promise ring, shut up ring or just something he did to be honorable he gets really mad. I’ve heard the money excuse, the I don’t know if you really want to be with me, the I think you don’t really want to marry me cus you love me or to just be married and twenty thousand things. If he had doubts why propose? I’ve agreed to a Justice of the Peace wedding and just a get together after. I love this man more than anything and he does treat me really well. We’ve been together 3 yrs and 4 months this time and prior to that 7 months. Why do I want to be married so bad? We have the whole package already, we are soulmates and I can’t imagine my world without him, he is my best friend, I am physically/emotionally dedicated to him, he’s a wonderful father,responsible, very smart, and I want to spend each night in his arms, each morning laying on his chest listening to his heart beat. Well bottom line I am head over heels and each day it grows stronger we’ve been through a lot together and are facing some rougher times due to termanilly I’ll parents on both sides. Sometimes I feel like I’m not good enough or he’s settling for me. Other times I feel like he just feels trapped and marriage will only push him over the edge. He tells me he loves me and provides very well and I understand we aren’t Rockerfellers or anything like that but we aren’t poor either which pisses me off cus the biggest argument is we don’t have the money. Am I being selfish? I mean there are other things that piss me off like people who met their partners way after we were engaged and are married already. I don’t want to wait forvever he is worth it but weboth agree it’s till death do us part but yet I can’t get that piece of paper? I’m sorry this is all over just crying and need to vent.