- 2 years ago
- Wedding: December 1969
Well, the tital says it all..
im in a mature 26 year old and the boyfriend is 33.
im waiting… I’ve been ready and waiting for quite some time now (I know- it sounds so silly and I wish I could stop it)
ive been with my current partner for 3 years now, I was the sole parent of my 3 month old son when we met which has gradually turned into my partner being the only “dad” my son knows..
everything seems so perfect from the outside but we keep getting asked the “million dollar question”- “WHEN ARE YOU GUYS GETTING MARRIED?!”..
every time I’m asked this, my heart just sinks and I want to cry..
i just say “oh I don’t know, we haven’t really thought about it yet”..
i hate that question.. I know that they are well meaning..
on father’s day this year we bumped into one of my bf’s friends who got into a relationship with her partner (now husband) at the same time as us, she even asked us the question..
i shrugged it off with a polite “I dunno, you’ll have to ask “insert bf’s name here”” and left it at that.
on the way home in the car he asked me if I was upset about the fact that he hadn’t proposed yet and I broke down crying (I tried to conceal it!) and said that it just hurts because I’m afraid that he will wait too long and that we won’t be able to have more children..
i have been honest with my partner since early in our relationship stating that I want to get married someday and that I won’t be having children until after I am married.
fertility issues run in my family and it looks like ive got endometriosis which will definitely make things harder to conceive when it’s time, I also want to finish up having kids as soon as I can (preferably 30ish) so I can have a hysterectomy to remove the issue for me (I have major issues from my condition that is constantly interfering with my daily life)..
my bf and I have a few friends who got into relationships at the same time that we got together and some even later.. They are all getting married or have just got married..
It sounds horrible (i feel so awful!) but I can not stand to receive another wedding invite or see another engagement announcement right now.
im so happy for everyone else but I wonder if my day will ever come around?
I know that my man is the one for me, I’ve known right from the start. we have talked about marriage freely in the past and I know that he wants more children but there is no end in sight when it comes to the proposal.
we own a house together, 2 cats and 3 dogs.
we have been raising a child together for 3 years..
i just can’t understand why 3 years isnt enough time to decide if you want to spend your life with someone When you have taken on these sorts of commitments?
i don’t want to bring up marrige to him again (especially after my waterworks on Father’s Day) because I don’t want to make the poor guy feel pressured but I also don’t want to potentially waste the last 5 years of my fertile life with someone who isn’t going to commit to me.
i really can’t picture my life without my significant other in it (although we have already discussed that he will always be my son’s dad and continue visits for that reason) but I don’t want to grow old resenting the person I love for procrastinating away my last opportunities of having another child either.
he refers to me as his wife when he introduces me to people. Haa he just got too comfortable?
whats a girl to do?