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Ok, I'm going to try my hardest to make this less complicated than it is.  And to preface it, I'd like to blame weddingbee for it all (you're totally not to blame but I tried! :oP).  The background- my bio father isn't in my life.  He chose not to be.  As a result, I don't know a soul on his side of the family.  Aside from a few people that my mother told me about.  I knew he had another daughter, about 10 years younger than I.  So, awhile ago, well before my wedding, I came to the bee for advice relating to my half sister.  I don't know her, never met her but I knew she existed.  In planning the wedding, I would go through these emotional times (how many of us have those moments, right?) and I'd be upset that I have such a large part of my family not in my life, most of all, her.  I wrote a post asking if I should at least reach out to her.  The majority said I should.  I totally panicked, wrote drafts then never sent them (this was all via Facebook- thank you FB, because I would of had no other way to find her).  Last week, I finally sent it.  And now my FB inbox is being flooded by emails and friend requests from uncles, aunts, cousins.  I don't know what to do.  This is so dumb but I'm freaking out a little.  I know I probably sound strange, huh?  I guess I kinda have residual feelings from childhood.. ya know, abandoment issues?  I am essentially well balanced, I swear.  But I'm feeling flooded with feelings I don't know how to process.  Part of me finds it really cool to have some puzzle pieces missing.  The other part feels like this could just end up hurting me somehow.  I never really saw this coming.  And I'm fearful that he'll request me on FB (cuz of course he's on there, annoying), I don't want him to contact me, he blew his chance. 

Any advice would be really appreciated.  Should I embrace it?  Or run like hell?  I'm wondering if his family communicating with me could somehow bite me in the ass?

@ quietserenity- wow, the parallels are crazy!  Thank you so much for your perspective, I really appreciate it, especially given the similarities in your life.  You made a lot of sense.  I really don't know her much, she's only 18 so I don't know if she'd be able to keep our communication to herself.  It seems she's already spoken to most of his family.  I really want to get to know her.  I hate the idea of having a sibling in the world and not knowing them.  I don't have many people that share my bloodline, I've always felt ripped off.  So that's why this is hard to process.  From what my Mother remembers, the rest of my fathers family were decent people.  But, you're right, this could just end up raising more questions and emotions that I really want it to.  Thanks again :)

Yeah, I guess I can try that (keeping details to a minimum), see how it works.  I guess the good thing is that they're in FA and I'm in NY.  That'll help keep them from popping up at least!  I just don't understand their eagerness to speak to me.  Ease up a bit guys!  Its really bizarre.  I'm also afraid that my father will find out and ask my sister to stop speaking to me.  I can almost understand that.  He wouldn't want me to tell her my experience and cause her to look at him differently.  I'd never do that, but he doesn't know that.  I guess I just don't want to be rejected by these people as he rejected me so long ago.  Ugh.

Thanks again Quietserenity.  I took the night to think it over.  I think I'm going to tell them the truth and that I'd rather keep my distance.  You're right, they may share a bloodline but they're not "family".  I'd almost feel like I was cheating on my true family anyway.  The thing is though, they never did have a choice about keeping in touch.  When his relationship ended with my mother, it was really bad.  She was young, he kicked her out, we traveled a lot, never telling him where we were.  So his family never knew either.  Regardless, I've decided to leave well enough alone.