- Miss Otter
- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2011
Okay, I said it. I really have this feeling that I am about to give up on a wedding.
I am stressed to the maximum. My chest is full of pressure and I continuously feel like I want to vomit.
I have no real good big reason. But then again I have many small reasons.
I am trying to spend as little money as possible. The fiance has basically explained this is the only way he sees it. I really understand, and I want the same thing, but it instantly makes planning a wedding 1000000x harder when you are trying to be cheap, but look like it wasn’t cheap. I think that is the root of the stress.
Also, I am starting to absolutely hate the dress I bought. At the time, it was the only dress out of 4 stores and 40 dresses I had liked. Whenever I put it on at home now, I only see the ISSUES with it. Its too big in a ton of areas, wrinkled and misshappen looking, too long (no hasn’t been altered yet)
I feel like my fiance has no clue. Its like he only sees the big picture: food cake invites, honeymoon thats about it. I see things like does this coordinate with this, will these decorations look complete, will the flow go well, and about a million other tiny details. And none of its going smoothly so I start to resent him for not really caring or understanding it!
Met with what I thought would be our potential DJ yesterday. He was nice, but really super expensive for the lack of experience he has. 900 dollars for 6 hours… kind of seems like a lot?? for Wi?
Cant find any cheap modern invites anywhere. Ive searched every freakin website around and just cannot figure it out.
Okay heres another issue. I feel like I have no friends at this point. My friends and I are all from the same college and graduated last summer – and by this point weve all had falling outs with one another. I am so stressed no one is gonna have fun or like anyone from that group by the time the wedding happens……….and its only 70 people!! so I need them to have fun or I just will want to throw up.,
Ugh, I dont know. I just wish I lived near a beach. I would have had a beach ceremony, with calypso drummers, a professional grilling company come, bonefire on the beach and just had a relaxed chill wedding. Its turning into everything I dont want it to be and I am seriously, seriously ready to just say forget it. Im so stressed out I just break into random crying sessions like every other day.